Faithful Servant of Christ

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2008-08-19T02:21:00.000-07:00

This blog will not be updated anymore.

I will update at
http://takashi-shinra.livejournal.com

So, see you there. :)

Ready to make a difference?

2008-08-15T09:33:00.000-07:00

Wow! 2 posts in 1 day. Today, i have a tremendous amount of time spent with my sheep. I have to say i love my sheep!

I was having shepherding with Stanley. I didn't teach him any lesson as i find that it is stressful enough to study for exam. We spent time talking to one another. I spent time correcting him & affirming for his faithfulness in serving God till now, even when it might be a bit too sudden for him to rise up as a leader, not so much according to his will & my will. But, i see his spirit in wanting to continue to support & to grow. He is very quick to change & grow from his weakness. Someone i thank God for in my life. It is him that God used to prune my weakness of impatience, & help me in my weakness of being indifferent. I pray that you will continue to do well, sheep.

I met Wei Koon later on at Jurong East. I must admit he is a very interesting person. He is someone very entertaining as well, to me. Haha. We spent time talking to one another about our ministry. He has a very keen interest to grow, & to outreach to non-believers. I spend time doing some A.Maths questions when i met him up, realized that i am still not too rusty as yet. I want to affirm him in the area of being extremely supportive, in spirit and in his companionship. He always outreached with me, even when he is studying. I pray that you will continue to grow, sheep.

Ok, enough of all my sheep. Now going to my grand-sheep. Haha. He is someone who is closed to my heart. I want to affirm Wei Kang, who has being bugged by me on MSN these few days. He is someone who is i must admit one of the most sincere guy, sweet spirit man i have met in my whole life! If i don't know the bible well, that everyone sins against God, i might think that he don't need God at all. Haha. But, God has worked tremendously in his life, and used him to invite his friends even! Praise the Lord! If you are reading my post, continue to grow. Although i keep pushing you to invite, but remember that our personal relationship with God ought to grow. I see you as a man to be used by God, & in DET. Persevere brother!

Yeah, enough affirmation. God bless you, if you are one of the above. I treasured you all! If you are not one of the above, you are treasured too!

Joy in the air

2008-08-15T00:14:00.000-07:00

It has been so long since i last post. I had an extremely fruitful time with Keng Ping just now as we were having lunch near his place. There is a level of excitement i have before i met him. I can say that it is fun/blessed to be able to follow up on a new believer.

When i asked him for any prayer request. He merely requested to have a good mood. Haha. The funniest thing was he wanted to have good mood because God has answered his prayers & he felt weird! Haha. Then i asked him this question, do he believe anything he asked for in prayer. With a mere "yes" as an answered, i showed him this verse.

Matthew 21:22
22If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."

To give you a brief description of what God has answered him in prayer. Here it is. On the day of caregroup, he fell sick. He contemplated whether to come for caregroup or not, as he felt nauseous and dizzy. With God's grace and a little persuasion from me, he chose to come down with faith! As a caregroup, we prayed that he will be freed from his sickness, just like how some blind men have been healed in the bible. Miraculously, God healed him! Today, he shared with excitement that, usually it took one week for his fever to be healed, God healed him on that day itself! Praise be to the Lord! Hallelujah!

I realized that the key to follow up - never spoonfeed them. Help them to experience their personal Jesus. I thank God how He has used me to follow up on this particular new believer. I have faith that he is going to continue to grow, & to be nurtured by the Holy Spirit.

Believe you all can do it as well! God be with all of you! :)

Cross the river!

2008-08-07T08:22:00.000-07:00

Hope to be in paradise now. I am so excited! 1 guy crossed the line of faith today! Praise the Lord! Yeah yeah! This is the first week of caregroup for NYP5 & we are just 2 people away from our goal! :)

I was taking the mrt with Wei Koon & Aaron just a moment ago. There is a girl who is wearing in black, standing directly behind Wei Koon. She is a very quiet woman, don't speak much i supposed. There was a girl who is standing beside this woman, who said excuse me multiple times to Wei Koon at the admiralty stop. Wei Koon just simply didnt hear her. LOL. She has no choice but to get over him by bending her body to walk pass him, underneath his hands which were holding on to the pole! LOL! The funniest thing is that, followed by it, the quiet & calm woman followed the woman out exactly the same way! Aaron, Wei Koon & I kept laughing & laughing at it. Precious moments! Haha

Fruitful Day Yet

2008-08-05T03:57:00.000-07:00

Today is a fruitful day spent. I did not just spend my time toiling on my project, I spent my time with Wei Koon & Yu Qing in outreaching. It's great!

I see how Yu Qing has sacrificed his time to do study & use his time to outreach. He absolutely sees the value of it, the outreach constantly brings him back to two months ago, when he said the first "yes" to Jesus. At the end of the day, i asked him, "Are you ashamed of proclaiming Jesus' name?" He humbly replied, "No, i am proud of it".

This brings me back to think that God is indeed moving in His people's hearts. God has blessed him with all As for his common test. His discipline speaks so much. Spending time with God at 9 in the morning, then have his own time to study. He is completing the covered topics for his exams, which wow! God has blessed him so much. I have faith he will do well. Fruitful time spent!

Consider carefully

2008-08-02T00:40:00.000-07:00

It has been a long long time since i post a good one. Today, i decided to dedicate some time to type this post well.

It has been a long long week for me. I can't exactly remember what happened but God has taught me a number of things this week. I was praying to God yesterday, at the ang mo kio park besides the mrt station. I was praying earnestly to Jesus, that He will give me a personal word. God shows me a scenario, where a squirrel ran. It's a personal word for me, to catch the non believers no matter how far they are going to run. I pray that i will be able to do so.

Traumatizing experiences are not as bad as unknown future. The experiences that you have can be put down, forgotten. But unknown future make you feel fearful. This is my personal opinion. Haha.

I don't know exactly where i am heading to right now. I feel like just leaving everything unattended. Despite all the fears i am having, some people just can't identify with me. I seriously need to consider carefully with the word of God what i ought to do next. I can't help others if i can't help myself. I don't like this kind of vulnerability, i feel weak & helpless. But that's because of pride & it do tear me down. I am not as humble as i seem. Sins & bad character are easily concealed.

I have been watching La Femme Desperado. I am totally amazed by Sharen Tang & Raymond Lam's acting. I am just so in love with them! Haha. It talks about a woman who is ditched by her husband who is absolutely unscrupulous. Then, she ditched him back, and this man then was tormented very badly by Sharen Tang. Haha. Thats so funny!

Here is the picture!

Thanksgiving

2008-07-29T09:38:00.000-07:00

I have been working on my script with the knowledge of some people. This time, after watching heart of greed, i will plunge into the story of a family that is breaking apart. Find out from me if you want to know more about it.

It has been a year since i have been leading a caregroup. It is tough but enjoyable. God has put me in a team where there is really good support around. Kudos to Khok Yen, Chris, Suherman, Benjamin, Aaron & Stanley. It's a great joy to work together with all of you, serving the same God, i pray that this covenant will never ever be broken. :)

Today, my buddy also shares her most inmost feelings. Thank God for you, Evangeline. You've been a great joy to my life as well. We've braced many storms together. Your presence greatly encourages me, & motivate me to walk on. Thanks to Xing Xing who is always a good brother to listen to me & lighten up my heart.

Thank God for all my ex-leaders & present leaders as well. Kudos to Andrew, Jia Hui, Hui Mei, Kar Shun, Leslie & Li Yan. You all have given me great advice & i am sure this will help me in the long run.

Thanks to my mum who has seen me grown throughout all these years with all my bad habits, & bad temper.

Thanks to all of you who are involved in my life. Pardon me if i forgot your name, God sees it all! :)

Take A Look At Me, Next Time

2008-07-20T01:21:00.001-07:00

Haha. What does my title means? It is taken from one sentence of the songs, "Against All Odds". The lyrics is actually "take a look at me now", but i changed it a bit.

What happened this week was we went everywhere for caregroup. Haha. Didn't get to meet up with a lot of people, but it was an extremely fun time of fellowship with the rest. I thank God that Yu Qing and Wei Kang like a lot as well.

Unexpectedly, i am a proposed leader of mission trip to Batu Pahat again! Lol\

Hotter than Volcano

2008-07-04T09:09:00.001-07:00

Yo. I am back to blog again. This time, it's better than ever.

Yesterday, we had a great meal in Takashimaya. We went to Ajitsen Ramen for dinner. Initially, we wanted to order our own main course, until Stanley comes up with the idea that all of us should challenge our limits, by eating an extremely spicy dish. It's just so freaking hot! I was unable to finish the food at first, but determination to finish, drove me to.

Yeah, all of us were able to finish at the end. That's a small victory we can give thanks to God for. Well, everyone had been very encouraging & supportive. I love the team and the meal very much.

Here are some of the photos i had taken while they were having their meal, without their consent! Haha. It is not so glamorous, of course.

Stanley trying hard & Aaron sweating hard.

Wei Kang, slow & steady. Suherman, fast & determined.

After the meal, we went outside takashimaya to have a chat. It was darn exciting. Stanley is the joke of the day. We were talking so seriously until he said out of the blue, "So this is Paragon". Figurately, we sweatdropped. Haha. Then, at another instance, when talking about coreteam, he used Akazuki clan as an example to explain to Wei Kang. A bit out of nowhere, but Wei Kang could easily understand it. Haha. Aaron shared certain struggles he faced, only to find himself agreeing with what Stanley experienced in the past 1 year.

We talked about how we will want to spend our time in the next 2.5 years. We also shared struggles, most importantly, we shared about almost everything. From horror movies, to eating man's meat, to volcano, to Naruto, to Paragon, to God, to ministry. Wow, this is thrilling. I pray for more of this kind of time. Next, we will hit Bukit Timah.

Haha. After we ended, we went and have ice cream, and took some pictures.

Great team, lets persevere on BROTHERS!

Dismayed?

2008-06-30T09:39:00.000-07:00

It is almost completed. Soon, everyone is going to know.

I loathe changes, i have never taken a change well in my life. I almost backslided after a restructuring 2.5 years ago. Last year, i spent so much time in adapting that i missed God's call in my life.

Well, i am definitely not going to waste anymore time this year, dwelling & dwelling in negativity.

Thank God that i have come up with a new strategy to keep me constantly on the hype! I am going to form a team known as AsA (Anti satan Alliance). Sorry, i can't cap S because satan is just unscrupulous.

Yesterday, when i heard what the new NYP will be like. I am honestly, dismayed. Haha. It's alright. I pray that everything is going to be fine. It's hard to release, but i know i have to. God needs to work His kingdom out in this world. I can't keep people to myself all the time.

Well, easily said than done. I thought of stepping down as a leader yesterday night. Lol. I realised i am just not humble enough, i keep on belittling myself. I want to grow in the area of humility. It's seriously hard to release especially when you build your caregroup with so much efforts, everything is changed before successful discipleship is done well.

Anger rose in me as i was typing this post but i want to assure myself with this verse.

Ephesians 4:26
26"In your anger do not sin"[a]: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,

I wish everyone the best. I pray for myself to get over it quickly. I think there's a slight improvement to my emotions. LOL. For leaders to access whether did i grow and did i make a consistent efforts!

Welcome Wei Koon to NYP too! Yeah. Pray you will grow well in God. :)

Heart of Greed part 2

2008-06-27T20:57:00.000-07:00

The part 2 of this post is going to be so long. I am prepared to type a post to catch the attention of onlookers. Here goes.

Yesterday was a long day for me. I was a bit emotional before the movie started because i am HUNGRY! Haha. Somehow or rather, i expected someone to get food for me without me paying for it. I have sinned in the area of greed, i realised. Some areas of my life reflect the likeness of the evil character inside.

Don't get stumbled by what i have said. I am still growing. By saying this, i am not giving myself excuse to sin in this area more, but to be aware of it, and stop committing the same mistake over and over again.

1 Thessalonians 2:5
You know we never used flattery, nor did we put on a mask to cover up greed—God is our witness.

A lot of people have been fcusing on "titles" rather than their personal relationship with the Lord. I have told many, that take aside your status of being a shepherd, a CL, who are you to God. Title shouldn't be the reason we should have in order to serve God whole heartedly. It is heartbroken to see many going after this title with greed, and many after attaining the position, fall very badly because their roots are not rooted on the word of God, but on title, emotions and feelings.

I have to make it clear to all people right now, that it is not men to annoint and appoint only. Our heavenly Father is the one.

We can argue that God don't annoint him, our leader annoints the wrong person. By saying this, we are already going against God's authority, as God entrusts the authority to appoint to our leaders. How long are we going to disobey? Isn't it a waste of time to feedback and feedback over issues after issues. If it is really urgent and it happens too many a times, we can feedback, but some of us, including myself have been using "feedback" conveniently to stir up unnecessary discord.

When i watch heart of greed, this verse comes into my mind

Proverbs 15:27a
A greedy man brings trouble to his family

Greed can cause much problems to the family. Same thing goes for spiritual family. If we just want to be self-centered and we just look at titles, eagerly waiting to be the next one. The kingdom of God cannot advance. You will see false accusations been passed around.

See ya, tata

Heart of Greed

2008-06-24T23:38:00.000-07:00

I have an alternate blog now. Haha. It will be http://takashi-shinra.livejournal.com. I will update this alternate blog almost everyday from now on. It will consist of my most personal thoughts, what are some of the events that happen in my everyday life. That blog will not be opened for anyone to read except my selected group of friends.

Recently, i got addicted to the drama, "Heart of Greed". For the sypnosis of the drama, please go look it up at wikipedia. I need to save my time in typing the outline of the story. At the climax of the drama, one united family is split into 2 and they fight for $0.6 billion. Anger, melancholy, grief, lust, dishonesty all breed just by the love of money.

This is so true. Sometimes, we are so blinded by money that we can trade whatever we have for it. If you are rich, maybe you are not so easily swayed, but what if it is a large sum of money. We may think that this trap is too big of a hole for us to drop into it because it is too blatantly something that the devil wants us to drop into. But, think about it. No one has actually offers you to trade yourself for a huge sum of money. Erm, if someone really does that, even me myself will not know how i will respond to that.

Nice drama, here is the poster.

Love everyone in the show. Their acting is simply superb!

You don't mess with Jesus!

2008-06-20T06:18:00.000-07:00

Haha. As the title suggests. I have just watched the movie, "You Don't Mess With The Zohan". This movie is simply funny. It talks a little bit about the on going war between Israel and the Arabs. I have a great time with Wei Kang & Stanley. Haha

It is definitely a good moment when ministry is aside, & there is a time when you can just enjoy the time with your sheep. God don't just create us to work, work & work. God created us to have fun too! Don't under-estimate the importance of having fun in the kingdom of God. It does help us to have joy in serving God!

I am very thankful that Wei Kang is growing as a believer. Throughout this period of time, even though he is a new believer, he seems like part of us already. I want to affirm him in this blog for his child-like faith. I want to encourage you, Wei Kang, if you are reading this entry, to continue to grow in your faith. God is going to add blessings upon blessings to you if you obey Him! Interestingly, problems will definitely come, but God always provide. Step out in faith!

See ya, tata! :)

Stagnancy, Complacency?

2008-06-17T09:51:00.000-07:00

As the title suggests, haha. I am going to talk a bit about stagnancy and complacency. Last year was a year that was the worst year for me in my whole walk with God. I rose up to be a CL, with huge amount of uncertainty and fear. My leaders changed, everything became a foreign ground to me. I took about 3 months to stabilize myself. It was also a time for me to find out where God can lead me.

I want to start it off by talking about the situation of my group. Last year, my group began with 3 people. Khok Yen, Chris and myself. Wow, i must say at that time, i was traumatized by the fear of leading very difficult people. Khok Yen was a guy who came on and off, inconsitent in caregroup and rather consistent for service. Chris was a sheep who always bite me, never gave me a peace of mind, topping it up with quarrels and disagreements. I begged God to take me out of that situation, i remembered saying this, "it's all too hard for me to handle"

After the mission conference in May last year, my heart for God started to pump a little bit faster. God brought me to think of His kingdom. Matthew 6:33 came to me and hit me right at the heart. It says:

33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

God also reminded me of Galatians 6:9. I want to thank God at this point of the entry for Shareeen who at that moment of time endured the same kind of hardship as i did. We met up frequently for discussions of our caregroup. We need to combine caregroup because both of our caregroup have only a regular attendance of 3. Just nice to form one proper caregroup of 6.

One particular afternoon, i started praying to God. God said He would bless me with someone of the school i was pioneering, which was the school of business at that time. So interesting, i started to have much unbelief about what the Holy Spirit could tell me. Indeed, God is faithful! I got to know Jia Ming from the School of Business! He is a friend of one of the brothers in TP. He came to know God, and then it came some new people.

De Ming wasn't that well retained until recently Chris made an effort to go all way out to connect him. Thomas had very well backslided from God AGAIN! Well, interestingly God just don't want to make him a shepherd because the moment i want to rise him up to be a shepherd. The number of new believer = 0. Stagnancy and complacency were in the group, thats why my group didn't grow and in fact many left God. Thats why, no taking break. It's a joy to serve God, thats why we keep serving. Once take a break, temptation(not trials)comes in. Look at David, just because he took a break from his war, he sinned against God. (Bathsheba example).

The high school transfers added much joy and atmosphere to the group. Thank God for Aaron & Stanley. They are people with a heart to serve God. They lighten a lot of my burden especially in taking ownership of taking care of their respective new believers. This gives me more space to do evangelism. I want to encourage my group who is reading the blog now. I believe we can do it as a team! Right now, even though i seem like a solo hunter for lost souls, i believe that the time will be ripe that you all will find lost souls too! See ya. Long post man!

Haha

2008-06-15T09:55:00.001-07:00

This isn't really what God has done but find it funny and a bit true. :)

On the first day, God created the dog and said:

'Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this, I will give you a life span of twenty years.'

The dog said: 'That's a long time to be barking. How about only ten years and I'll giv e you back the other ten?'

So God agreed.

On the second day, God created the monkey and said:

'Entertain people, do tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I'll give you a twenty-year life span.'

The monkey said: 'Monkey tricks for twent y years? That's a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the Dog did?'

And God agreed.

On the third day, God created the cow and said:

'You must go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer's family. For this, I will give you a life span of sixty years.'

The cow said: 'That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. How about twenty and I'll give back the other forty?'

And God agreed again.

On the fourth day, God created man and said:

'Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. For this, I'll give you twenty years.'

But man said: 'Only twenty years? Could you possibly give me my twenty, the forty the cow gave back, the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back; that makes eighty, okay?'

'Okay,' said God, 'You asked for it.'

So that is why for our first twenty years we eat, sleep, play and enjoy ourselves. For the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family. For the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren. And for the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.

Survivors!

2008-06-15T01:13:00.000-07:00

Wow wow! God is faithful! Thursday, i told Hui Mei that i had a fiery prayer with God! I told God that i will not let Him go until He blessed me! God really did! Amazing!

For last year, my caregroup has made a record of having zero visitor in all kind of special events. This year, God made it a turning point. Now, my caregroup has finally broken 12! In fact, it is now 13 people in the group! God is working more and more miracles in the group! I am so darn excited! My caregroup didn't grow by having many transfers, but it grows!

Now, conquering the long table in MAC is no longer a dream. Prayer works miracles, it is such a great joy to be serving with Jesus by our side! Yeah!

Excitement!

2008-06-12T08:58:00.000-07:00

I am so excited! This week is going to be a special service! Thank God that Jiang Long, Wendy and Ming Zhe has come to know the Lord! I am sure the Lord is working in the campus now. Move now, Holy Spirit. Move in the hearts of the non believer!

I will continue to invite, 2 more days. Not about giving up right now. I have got to trust the Lord. Thank God for the people in the caregroup today! Nicodemus, Suherman, Chris, Benjamin, Guan Quan, Stanley, Wei Kang and Aaron! You all have added much joy to the group. It's again one of the best caregroup i have ever attended as a careleader!

I want to encourage the people on this blog, in hope church. Continue to invite. If you have rejections, thats great! Because at least you invited! Wei Kang invited and got rejected but brother, its alright man! We go through all these as well. One day, God will visit your friends' heart.

Revival, revival to take place! 12 for NYPB2, 22 for the NYP brothers! We are going to see this goal come to pass!

Let It Be

2008-06-09T07:30:00.000-07:00

Wow. Today 9th June has got to be the best day ever. It is the first day Xing Xing started his work. I called him when i am taking mrt to chua chu kang today, and he is telling me that he is working at the office of bishan mrt station, and add "youzhi" (childish in mandarin) a bit here and there. So interesting, brother!

Today, i shepherd 3 of my sheep. Initially, i plan to teach all 4 of my sheep at once, so that i will not be repeating the same lesson 4 times. But, chris can't make it at 3 today. So, i might as well meet them individually.

The 1st shepherding of the day is fierce, more at the frontline. I am very serious during the teaching. But, we have lunch, have fun before that. I choked on my food too. I want to affirm Chris that he has grown a lot throughout these 2 years. He has gotten out of his pride issue, humbly listened to me when i correct him today without showing me his "bao gong" face. I thank God that we chat more often through the phone these days. Our relationship has improved by a mile. We have gone through stormy weather, sunny days together. I appreciate him in my life. 2 years ago, i told Andrew "It must definitely be God's work if i can live in peace with him". Now, i know that God definitely works!

The 2nd shepherding of the day is funny. During shepherding, Stanley and i go to KFC, a distance away from my previous shepherding which is at the Mos Burger in ang mo kio hub. We were chatting about Shuan and Wei Kang. During teaching, he got distracted when i revealed a news to him about someone, whom he respected a lot. And he starts to ask a lot of questions about it. It is funny to me, especially the way he reacts, because i just refused to let him know the answer. It is just like a child, keep digging and digging the parents for the answer, but the parent just want to let him know, at the right time. Haha.

The last shepherding of the day is the longest and it is the best. Aaron and i went to KFC (2nd time of the day and i had mountain dew for the 2nd time). I can say at that time, i am pretty tired, but i am so sure that God has so specially arranged it to be the final one. I taught him the lesson, and after that we began to share life, he shared his problems to me, and i shared about certain circumstances i have gone through as a believer. It is so true that believers can get so spiritually dry if we keep on remaining stagnant. He is a very sincere person, and throughout this shepherding, i realised that as much as i know of him to be a very "rara" kind of person, there is a certain vulnerability about him. So real, so warm. I believe this is the kind of shepherding that God yearns for all of us to have. Take away all the pretension that we are doing well, we both realise the fact that when we keep on going around telling people we will definitely not leave church, we are putting ourselves at a vulnerable position where the devil can attack us, in the area of our pride. We prayed for a very long time. We repent, pray in the Spirit to edify ourselves, respond to God about our desires to serve Him, thank Him for everything He has put us through for it happens for a reason. We are both refreshed after the prayer. At the end of the shepherding, i realised we had spent 3 hours in total and it is very fruitful!

Thanks Aaron for his sincerity and his willingness to share.

With that, i end off with my favorite song from the beatles, "let it be"

I will change the "mother mary" to "my Lord Jesus" because we believe in Jesus and not mother Mary.

Let It Be - The Beatles (John Lennon & Paul McCartney)

When I find myself in times of trouble, my Lord Jesus comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness He is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, my Lord Jesus comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

We allow God to do His work and let it be........

For so long

2008-06-02T09:19:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since i last posted. I am on a very sleepy state when i am typing this. Haha, so pardon me for all the poor english used here.

Recently, bad things happened to me. Time after time, parts of my body get injured. Yesterday, during challenge your limits, my wound on my finger got infected, so badly that today the doctor just cut an opening on my finger and squeeze all the pus out. Eew, i am disgusted by it myself when i see the yellow fluid flowing out of my "vulnerable' finger. I am glad that i took the courage to do it, because i can simply take the easy way out of just applying lotion onto it. But, it takes 3 days to heal.

I thank God in all circumstances that i am still able to do this for God. I don't regret going for that event at all, even though it caused me a lump sum of money, $35.60 for the medical bill! And also much pain along with it.

I want to thank Hui Mei, for teaching me a method of numbing my finger yesterday and also for "entertaining" me. Even though she was sleeping yesterday, she still answered my call, responded gently, unlike someone who just woke up from sleep. And later on send 2 smses, one with regard to, if my pain still persists, do let her know. I want to thank God that there is actually someone in my life who i can still count on despite tough circumstances.

Next, i want to thank my mother, who is more concerned over my wound than myself. She tried all ways to make me feel more comfortable. She always say "its you yourself suffering the pain" but her actions make her as if she is the one who is in pain. Haha. I can see she really loved me a lot.

Thrilled

2008-05-19T23:21:00.000-07:00

Everything is much in order. God has definitely taken the group out of a barren state. There is much greater things to expect, one more new believer added to us! Welcome Wei Kang into the family of God. So excited to see him grow as a believer!

There is always this thing going around. Sharing on the street, survey is not effective. Friendship evangelism is always the most powerful. Anyway, who are we to see which is the most effective. Our heart burden and our heartbeat should always go forth to the people who are lost in this world, not just our classmates. Jesus' love doesn't only go forth to His friends, He died for every soul. He sends the disciples out 2 by 2, to perform miraculous signs & wonders, so that anyone who see it might believe. They ain't doing nothing for their friends but for the community who have yet put their faith in Jesus.

So, does it mean that friendship evangelism is wrong? Obviously not! Friendship evangelism is extremely crucial to bring people to come to know God. It is more natural to bridge the gospel to your friends through friendship as they know us, and we also know them. God has already made it natural for us to share His love to our friends.

So what am i trying to bring across in my 2nd paragraphy? Simply this. A lot of people due to laziness, fear, unwillingness have consistenly been using this excuse to avoid sharing the gospel to other people, especially to strangers. A good tree will bear good fruits. There will bound to be a time, if we faithfullly share the gospel, God will bless our work. If there is already unbelief that God work through any kind of adversity. This unbelief is even worse than unwilllingness.

Yeah, i want to affirm some people in my blog here. My current caregroup members who have invited their friends for service, Stanley & Aaron. People who share out of their comfort zone as well, Chris & Benjamin. I pray that we can continue to walk together as a group.

Agape Love

2008-05-12T08:54:00.000-07:00

I was thinking about a lot of things earlier on. I realised the more i am down on the field with non-believers, the more i grow in my love for them. I want to see that they can have the same kind of life that a believer can have.

Everyone needs love. A lot of people try to source out where they can get their best love. But, the truth is the best love can come out from no one, especially when they are imperfect. The best always comes from the creator, the Father, who gives good gifts to His children. His love is clearly displayed on the cross 2000 years ago, when He sends His one and only Son to die on the cross for the people despite knowing that there will be millions who will not come to acknowledge or even despise this fact.

God did not expect us to give all we are to Him. He gives His love unconditionally, out of grace, for those who put their faith in Him, He willingly gives eternal life to them. The love He gave us demands no return at all, not even your seemingly flawless speech can reciprocate His love that He has poured out to us.

Reading this, it may seem to be something that we already know, or another nonsensical post, having an urge to go to some other people's blog and read up for more knowledge. But a question, "How are we practising it?". If we don't even practise what we know, we are like salt which has lost it's saltiness.

Love comes in a long way

2008-04-26T19:25:00.000-07:00

I am so perplexed by what is happening around me these days. There isn't joy in me when i am serving at certain point, it becomes a burden, some extra baggage i have to carry during this spiritual race. Sometimes, it becomes a hope that i want to drop everything i have and run my own race.

Love, this word has great power. With actions, it is dangerous to the devil, as it can changes someone to turn away from their wicked ways. A lot of time, i find that i am not really stretched in accomplishing God's will for me in my life. But, when God do stretch me a little, i feel pain in me. Just like when doing stretching exercise, your goal is to use your hand to touch your toe, you ain't that flexible but God is just someone who will push you bit by bit, so that you reach your goal.

Treasured Memories

2008-04-13T11:45:00.000-07:00

Today, as i am talking to Chris for very long on the phone. I realized that we have not been doing life together, in fact as a whole caregroup. At times, i felt that the caregroup is breaking apart. Not to play the blame game here, but caregroup meeting seems to be a chore, rather than a lifestyle.

I am talking to Guan Quan on msn. I recalled the day when he comes to know God. Even for someone as quiet as him, God's love is so irresistible to him that he initiates to want to come to know God. It brings me back to think that, i appreciated him a lot. He is an apple of God's eye.

I want to treasure people in my group, spur them to do things just like a family. Not some routine mundane stuffs again.

Greatest Love Of All

2008-04-06T20:23:00.000-07:00

First of all.

1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

All of a sudden, why do i post this verse?

The reason is very simple.

We need to dare to love people. We can't express our love by hiding it away. Today, as i was reading the bible and one book, by John C Maxwell. It teaches me about the perfect example of love that God has shown on the cross, the compassion that God shows to Noah, when the creation of mankind grieves Him.

John 15:12-13
12My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

Ask ourselves this question. Did God love us by hiding it away? Didn't He express out His love? We can argue that this is how Asian parents show their love to children. My parents use deeds instead of words to love me. Yeah, it is great, we can't say we love but has no action to support it. Many Asian kids take a long time to feel loved by their parents because of their conservative speech. I am not condemning but how great it can be when we can say we love and we have deeds to back it up. Just like how Jesus, has told the disciples that He has loved them, and die on the cross as an action to back it up.

So ultimately, to my belief, the greatest love of all is you say it, and you do it!

Hard to believe

2008-03-19T11:19:00.001-07:00

I bumped into someone's blog earlier tonight. I can say i am extremely stunned by the person who is blogging it. The soul of one who has been completely hurt and lost, heart is thoroughly hardened by bitterness and envy. How my heart goes towards this man, who is not at the right state of "spiritual" mind.

Somehow, it brings me back to think and thank Andrew who has been a good vessel of God in envisioning me, and helping me to adjust my priorities. I can vividly remember week after week, he will call me, and "pressurize" me to come for caregroup and service, even when i am super tired or super sick. Now, i am someone whose priority is really on God Himself. Recently, i talked to one person who is completely loving the "truth" that he is doing well with God by praying to God, reading His word at home, and loving people from afar. This is totally contradictory to what is stated in the bible.

Hebrews 10:25
Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

If God likes to love us from afar, he need not come down to the earth and die for us. He might as well die in heaven. Precisely, He came down, made Himself like a man, interact with us, and love us even though sins have made us absolutely dirty. You can't say "I love an annoying person at home" without actually being involved in the life of the annoying person and being annoyed by him.

Philippians 2:6-8
6Who, being in very nature[a] God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
7but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature[b] of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death—
even death on a cross!

Come on. If we think that this is being stressful, think again! If you think we are being forceful in our invitation to the people for cg and service. Think twice! This is not about being coming and going, it's about being involved. If you think this is Hope denomination, think thrice! You are not going to escape the account you are going to give to God at the end of the day, be it you are in Hope, Trinity, Rick's Warren Church, Billy Graham's converts whatsoever! If we can't even commit to the basic, the end times are going to cut our faith completely from God.

Matthew 25:31-46
31"When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his throne in heavenly glory. 32All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left.

34"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'

37"Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?'

40"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'

41"Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.'

44"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'

45"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'

46"Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life."

How are you going to be a good sheep without being involved in church?

To all

2008-03-15T10:14:00.000-07:00

Hi. I am so excited right now. There are a lot of happenings in and out of the caregroup right now. It seems to me that God is really testing the heart of His people. Praise the Lord! He answered my prayer with the rhema word He has given me two months ago.

Haha. I am thrilled of a meeting tomorrow with Aaron. Yeah. I have never taken care of a High School Transfer before. When he admits that he isn't really that strong, it shows humility and openness for him to share it to me, especially when he barely even know him. :)

Struggling always?

2008-03-11T10:11:00.000-07:00

It is just so difficult to be out there in the field to sow. There is a mixture of emotions and fear, which i thank God that He has actually put me through this. I am sure God is going to bless me with much if i just simply obey His call.

There is a level of excitement in my heart now. Now, i can totally experience the joy of being able to serve Him, without having to circle around the same struggle all the time. I understand the meaning of "break free". It is true that humans do sin, but if we always use this as an excuse not to have any breakthrough. Then it is just an excuse, because when Jesus died on the cross for us, we had already died to our old self. There is no reason for the same kind of struggle.

I thank God that, i have overcome what i deem impossible. :)

Desire to improve

2008-03-05T09:53:00.000-08:00

Hey. I am back to write my blog again. I have an extremely refreshing caregroup today. My tank is filled this morning with an abundance of God's love. I read the book of Joel today, amazing prophecy. Yet again, it brought me closer to God, wanting to find out more about Him. More to come, i am anticipating it.

Today, it is nerve wracking. The first time i have to teach so many people in Istana Park. Wow! There are visitors too, which add on to the fear that i have to teach. I have reassurance from the Holy Spirit when He reminded me of this verse, which greatly boosted my faith in my deliverance of the lesson.

1 Thessalonians 5:19
Do not put out the Spirit's fire;

After being struck by that verse. I immediately regain back my conviction and to really teach the people what God has impressed on me. It is said in the book of Mark, "If God is for you, who can be against you?" It encourages me that if God really want me to speak, i have to do it. I can't be like Jonah, who is constantly on the escape route from God. If the Holy Spirit stirs up great energy in you to bring across a message to the people, don't dampen it with discouragement and fear(False evidence appearing real).

I had liked to do more for God. I don't want to waste this holiday away. I pray my people will have the same mindset. I seriously don't see how we can build up our faith in our tiny hut spending time with God in our cute little room when the real deal of building up your faith is on the spiritual battlefield, which can be quite intimidating to first timer because you don't fight against someone whom you can see.

Ephesians 6:12
For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

Until the next time, tata.

The Time Has Come....

2008-03-03T23:46:00.000-08:00

Today, i am spending my day at home reading the book of Hosea. Wow, i must say, spending time with God is nothing but priceless. I understand His heart and His ways better. The Word of God clearly is a lamp to our feet. I am thankful to God that i am able to read His words, praying that during the last of the last days, they will be impressed on my hearts that when anti-christs take the bible away, God's word is still in me.

There is a level of guilt in my heart. It has been such a long time since i last teared in front of God. I felt ashamed that i have taken advantage of His grace that He has shown me. In Hosea 6:6, this verse hits my heart so bad that i want to come immediately into repentance of my sins.

Hosea 6:6
For I desire mercy, not sacrifice, and acknowledgement of God rather than burnt offerings.

If you can't understand what this verse is trying to say, it's trying to say. When is the last time you have repented of the sin and move on from there? Are you repenting over and over again that it has become more of a religion rather than to please God? A lot of times, when i have fallen short in this area, i always have this excuse in my mind, "aiya, i am still a human being, surely i will feel this way, even if it isn't right. Just repent at the end, God will still forgive." Due to this, my relationship with God just seems strong, but it isn't even closed to been strong. I lack trust in His power to transform life now. It brings me back to think that i trusted Him more when i am a new believer, that He is able to transform the past me to who i am today. I yearn to find my faith back again, not to be too caught up with serving the church only and neglect my personal walk with God.

It is so true in the bible that it says
Matthew 18:2-4
2He called a little child and had him stand among them. 3And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

Serving people should not be an obligation, it should be out of the overflow of God's love in your heart, that you want to show it to other people. There's no such thing as getting sick and tired of serving. I am a culprit of this and ought to reflect on myself, ask myself whose strength am i depending on when i serve. Serve with joy! Don't be like Martha, who kept complaining and whining while serving!

It's a mental challenge, not a physical one!

2008-02-24T07:43:00.000-08:00

Wow, i had a extremely long day today. Extremely tired after an approximately 1.5km jog at Bukit Panjang. In addition to it, i had to rush to Ang Mo Kio to shepherd Khok Yen. Then immediately after our shepherding, i quickly ran home, get a quick shower and went to work. Today, i am physically lame. I asked Joycelyn whether my "bai ka" is very blatant. She answered me with a "a bit". So, i take it as a "quite".

Today jog was profoundly life draining. I understand the whole deal about running a race. It has been 3 years since i last ran, my stamina has deteriorated. Furthermore, i am fatter than how i used to be before i took my O levels. It shows that Jesus has fed me pretty well, not just with a loaf of bread and two fishes. The whole deal about this is that, it is more than a physical race, it is a mental one. Once you tell yourself to give up, that's it. Your physical body gives way to your thoughts. I will be striving to improve, and to endure longer for the next one.

It transforms me...

2008-02-23T10:23:00.000-08:00

For these few days, some issues have been going around in my mind. I am getting fearful over some experiences that i went through last year. I can say just one hour ago, i am very concerned about it, i do not know how i can cope with it this year, if it were to happen again.

I talk to my shepherd just now, about it. Thank God, i know God has sent the right person to talk to me! I am so excited that i want to blog it even now, at this late hour. One phrase that he brought up, which i am actually hit by it is "net gain in the kingdom of God".

I want to do more, and stop expecting. Sometimes, frustration can take place if the things we expect do not come to pass. I am at peace with that.

Good night, everyone! :)

I love You/you more than yesterday!

2008-02-22T03:03:00.000-08:00

Haha. Don't misunderstand the "you". It is true that it refers to a girl, it refers to a guy too! So interesting. Brothers who are reading it, i love you as much as i can. They refer to my new contenders/favorite of the american idol! Finally back for the seventh time, the talents just keep getting better. I have taken a 6 months holiday from all the craze i have with Miss Melinda Doolittle. Now, i am back for Alaina Whitaker, and David Archuleta.

Alaina Whitaker. Simply the young Carrie Underwood. Have a country feel to songs that she sings. I extremely love her. Guess what, she is only 16 years old! For a 16 year old girl who can belt, oh my gosh, thats a rare talent. She sang "I love you more than yesterday" by Diana Ross on thursday night. It is profoundly awesome! She will be the black horse to win American Idol this year, in addition to it, i hope she will be the youngest winner ever to win, if Jordin can win last year, she can do it this year!

Here is a picture of this eye candy. :)

Next is David Archuleta. Haha. He sang "Shop Around" by an unknown singer, perhaps i can search who is the singer after this post. He has a solid mature voice, given a young age of 17. He is another one of my favorite this year. He has excellent control, charming smile and a irresistible charisma.

Here is a picture of another eye candy.

To sum everything up, "this is a season for youngsters!" Blow man!

Having said all these. Do we love God more than we do yesterday? Do we seek for God consistently everyday during our walk with God.

A lot of times, it is not that we can't use our time for leisure like for my case watching amazing race or american idol. But, are all these the masters of our life? If we are controlled by it, something is wrong. This may not be unbiblical by itself, but as we watch, we process the information we receive from the TV, and sin. Sin comes from the thoughts first, followed by the action then repercussions and consequences. Are we taking captive of our thoughts, or we want to display our emotions to people?

2 Corinthians 10:5-6
5We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 6And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete.

Let's make every effort to make our love complete for Jesus. Be secure, do not let your thoughts run wild, it is definitely going to help us by a mile in our "race" with Jesus. Don't forget to get the strangers and the spectators to participate with you!

No lukewarm please!

2008-02-20T08:44:00.000-08:00

As the title suggests. This post, i will make it as short as sweet as possible. It is not going to be just a typical sharing i am going to post on this blog, it is going to be a post that has got so much depth into it, and is going to be so much more intriguing than all the posts that i have written previously.

This year, for the 2008 resolution i have set. It revolves around this verse.

Revelation 3:15-16
I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

Come on guys, ask yourself this question. In our whole journey with God, we always want to be at the middle, right at the center. From this verse, we clearly understand the heartbeat of God, that He desires His people to choose either to be hot and passionate for Him, or cold towards Him. What is the point telling people everywhere, "I believe in God, but i can't do much for Him, i just want to believe in Him, so i can go heaven". Please. i don't think this pleases God at all! Where is our heart for Him when we say this? Where are our priorities place in our life that God is never the first? Has someone stolen our heart away from God? Don't look at all these factors and deem it as a lecture, rather consider it that they play a very important part in causing us to remain in stagnancy, to be lukewarm.

Passion has to derive from one heart for God. If you fancy someone to an extend of you singing the song, "can't get you out of my head" by Kylie Minogue. Something is wrong, and you can't cover it up by saying, "this is my human nature". Why did i say so? It is so very simple, when you love God whole-heartedly, you won't have the room to think of having someone else in your life, unless you are really really convicted by the Holy Spirit, that when both of you come together as one, you can do so much more for the kingdom of God, and it don't please your flesh, but your Creator. i can't commend much when you don't even have a desire to grow and skip levels, to go and get married now. Generally, i look at it as one of the most unhealthy sign for teenagers like us to go missing from church.

Coming back to myself. Hui Mei and i talked on the train just now. I realized that actually i can do so much. I want to do the best for my last year in the campus. It is an either do or don't for me. It is either i believe and go all out, or don't believe and leave. Stagnancy is not an option right now. Now, i want to put all my amazing race show into a quote

'"We are running in this spiritual race to win the devil, not to take our own sweet time without a sense of urgency. There must be a holy competitiveness to do more for the sake of Jesus, and a holy discontent to grow out of all our weaknesses and shortcoming. With that, we are extremely sure of our destiny which is in heaven, which makes it worthwhile of all our determination, diligence and perseverance. During this course of race, fruits of the Spirit will be nurtured, get all the spectators and the strangers into this race with you! Our humility will be tested, and our pride will be finally put to rest, do it for the sake of God!" - Wei Hong.
This is my pledge. I will fulfill it for the rest of my life. :)

Eternity

2008-02-17T08:42:00.000-08:00

I was wondering to myself, why are there so many people going out during valentine's day? My restaurant for consecutive 2 years, was filled up during this occasion. It is very interesting to know that, if God's love isn't in your heart, there is always room to think about your "life partner".

I watched one episode of Amazing Race Season 5. Colin & Christie, both are unscrupulous racers. Christie blocked the airport entrance to prevent Charla & Mirna from entering. Below is the picture.

I loved Colin & Christie. Plus, their dirty tricks. But, they are a wonderful couple, because somehow, both of them have a same goal in mind at that point of time, is to get Charla & Mirna out as soon as possible. I am not encouraging us to be unscrupulous or dirty, but when we want to get our spouse, we need to be very sure whether we can extend God's kingdom together or not.

Soon...

2008-02-10T05:58:00.000-08:00

Studio project is starting tomorrow. Enjoying my last day of Chinese New Year. It has been a great new year for me. Going to Malaysia to visit my grandmother is nothing but priceless. I told my mother on the way home that even though she is closed to 70, she looks exactly the same when i saw her as a child.

On the second day of the new year, we went shopping for... ANIME. My cousin is EXTREMELY obsessed with it. We got Hell Girl, Ouran High Host Club, Spiral. We watched Hell Girl for the entire evening. However, we are listening to both Japanese and mandarin at the same time. The characters spoke in Japanese, but my aunt's nagging to stop watching is in Mandarin! LOL.

Speaking of my aunt, she is a very gifted speaker, even better than some of the professional out there. (Which is not surprising, since she works in that field too). In less than a year, she is able to earn through 2 MLM companies. With that aside, she is able to earn closed to a million dollars in 3 years. Awesome! She treated us to a restaurant with shark fins, abalone, lobster. Oh my Gosh. Just loved it! A treat once per year! Haha

Here is a picture of the lobster and me!

Is love for someone really everything?

2008-01-31T07:13:00.000-08:00

It has been so long. I can't recall the time i last fall for someone so deep. Yesterday, i attended the "building relationship" word for life. Everything seems to fall into pieces. There is always a missing part of me in my heart, i trust that only my one and only God can fill it up.

Love is complicated without God. I can't figure out the exact definition of this word. This word can only be completely comprehended and practised by God. I wonder what is this word all about. This person i like is distant, so distant from me, it is as if it is impossible for me to get. It seems weird and funny but the truth is that, i have never fallen in love with someone very dear to me, at all. So quit guessing who is that person if you are reading my blog. I won't even reveal to you the gender. :p. Feel free to think anyhow for it doesn't really matter. Haha

Feelings aside, we can't put all our emotions and time on the person we like. It can be exhaustive and a waste of time. Sometimes, we are being too indulgent in it, that we always fool ourselves with reasons why this person is doing something to us. Give yourself a tight spiritual slap, and get back to your feet in reality. Get yourself closed to God, or everything is just useless. Love is only complete when it is for God, not for another human being because they are imperfect.

My favorite amazing race couple - Miss Kris and Mr Jon. They lack personality but come on, they work extremely well together!

Reflection, Refraction Again

2008-01-23T22:56:00.001-08:00

Yesterday, Phoebe and i were rushing for our assignments in class. For a total of 8 hours, excluding the lunch break that we had, we had been toiling with our assignment. It was extremely frustrating and nerve-wracking, when the computer gave up on us, for a several times. It was a pain to redo the work. Nevertheless, praise the Lord, we finished up on it.

Hui Mei read the sms i sent her the day i returned from LC to the group. In the sms, i put a lot of "haha" which comes out randomly, in the midst of a very serious sentence. Last week, James from DI asked me this, "am i really laughing when i put all these in the message?". My reply to him is no, it is just a norm that i put "haha" in sms, to cut down the intensity of a very serious message. I don't know how got the habit of using "haha" in messages, maybe i constantly sms xing xing, and he always put "haa" without fail. In case, you thought that "haha" i typed in the previous sentence lacked one "h", then i have to say this is his "haha". If you don't believe me, you can try. Haha! I am really laughing now.

Amazing Race Closed!

2008-01-20T18:32:00.000-08:00

Yeah. Congratulations on a big win for TK and Rachel! They definitely deserve to win. They have been calm throughout the entire race, they don't bicker much and they are very sweet people. The only bad side is that they have a pretty bad sense of direction. Haha.

It is a pity that Ronald and Christina didn't win this race. I always hope that they will be able to win it! Having said that, i am still very proud of them, they are the best father/daughter team in the history of the amazing race! They have a bad start, but they end off amazingly. At the final leg, they are number one consistently until Christina hit a bad roadblock. Nevertheless, she is an interesting, most controversial person in this season. Still can't forget last week, when she told an airport staff to tell Nathan and Jennifer that the flight is fully booked. LOL

Sinister smile on Christina.

As amazing race comes to a close. Here comes one of my favorite reality TV of all times, AMERICAN IDOL! Great job Simon Cowell, miss you this whole year. Sorry for all the hope people reading it, it is not a post to reflect on life today. Haha

Short One

2008-01-20T01:12:00.001-08:00

Just downloaded the wrong episode of amazing race 6. Haha. I have great time watching Kris and Jon owning the whole competition. I am getting sort of nostalgic about it, by the way, i watched it 4 years ago. Oh my Gosh!

It had been a valuable time celebrating my sheep, Benjamin birthday yesterday. This sheep of mine has been absolutely fabulous in serving God. He is also a very strong, self-motivated armor bearer. His pick up rate for God's words is profoundly fast. When i affirmed him yesterday, i recalled how he was as a new believer and right now, he is just 2 different person. I pray that God will be faithful to him, and i am faith filled that he is gonna accomplished much for God, Amen!

Back to my interest and recent obsession of amazing race. Lena & Kristy are fantastic racers, they just have bad luck. Dustin & Kandice still remain to me the most beautiful and gorgeous racers ever, and the strongest all girls team in the history of amazing race. Yeah.

Miss California And Miss New York(Same birthdate with me) :)

One chance! Privilege!

2008-01-18T00:05:00.000-08:00

Life is shaky. Everyone should fear that they will be the next Judas Iscariot. Judas had been unaccountable to Jesus. In addition to it, he had valued money more than Jesus. We should be constantly aware of this, let not the devil triumph in our life.

I came back from LC yesterday. I have seen lots of interesting people, heard many life impacting testimonies from Peter Truong. I realised that God always want to bless us with many good gifts but our disobedience is always a barrier for God to pour out His blessings. We need to learn obedience the hard way, it may not be an easy thing to do but just do it first, don't ask any question. Obedience can't come with a condition. Just obey first and then we will understand.

When Abraham was called to leave his hometown by God. He did not ask WHY! We need to know that at times, our obedience to God only comes after we learn of the total concept and accept it when the principle of obeying it seems "fine" to us. But, it shouldn't be this way, i am sure God don't want it this way as well.

Hebrew 13:7
7Remember your leaders, who spoke the word of God to you. Consider the outcome of their way of life and imitate their faith.

What's with me?

2007-11-27T00:36:00.000-08:00

I didn't feel well these few days. In fact, i am having cough, an extremely wet nose (trust me, though i have running nose often, this is exclusively severe). Slight fever brought me down, just a little. I am spending my monday afternoon sleeping after watching Amazing Race which surprisingly, brings me out of bed even though i am very tired and feverish. Glad to see Ronald and Christina working so well to save themselves of philimination. Interesting. Haha.

Last wednesday, it was my birthday. Not my happiest birthday ever, but glad to spend my time with my own spiritual buddy. I can't believe that almost one year has already passed just with a blink. Vividly remember my last year birthday spending it with the unit, and most importantly 2 years ago, spending it with my caregroup and Leslie's specially substituted cake with mountains of Ferero Rocher (not sure the spelling) that was won during the NYP castaway.

I am wondering how am i going to spend my 2008. I have set several goals, i pray that i will be able to achieve them. I desire to be a godly man, just like King David. I pray that my life will revolve around the Word of God, being relevant at the same time. Specifically, i pray that i will be one step closer to fulfill the vision God has given me.

Terribly in need of cash. I pray for a tuition job. With my money on God, i guess it is on the way.

Here i am to blog...

2007-11-08T06:56:00.000-08:00

Ok. I want to write my post as short as possible for today.

Today, it is one of my worst day ever in my life as a Christian. Hit a stumbling block today, almost fell. God lifts me up, my people continue to be my motivation. Can't forget Li Yan and Andrew for what they did 2 years ago. Can't forget last year water baptism which i made a decision to be a spiritual buddy with Xing Xing. Marvelous memories. This continues to be my drive in persevering.

Just now, i share to Xing Xing about my struggles. I thank God that though he may not be considered spiritually mature to most people, he still listens and understands, joke with me, lighten my yoke. Through this, i realise that everyone is really indispensable in God's kingdom. I can't forget all the negative comments made to me by leaders who i do not want to mention.

Right now, i feel like resting, stabilise my emotions a little. Through this, i realise how Evangeline has felt. No understanding with just a common vision, it boils down to nothing but a unhappy Christian life.

Proverbs 18:2
A fool finds no pleasure in understanding but delights in airing his own opinions.

Rain fall down

2007-11-05T22:13:00.000-08:00

I have been looking forward to what will be happening these few days. Somehow, i felt being in want. Just want to share with someone my most inner feelings, and i know it would just be what people like to say "easier said than done".

Nevertheless, i have loved to share a news that is on the other side of the causeway. Excitingly, Hope BP has another convert! And he is Chee Hong. Haha. Thrilled that he has finally come to know God. I pray that he can grow well under Graig, haha. I trust that Graig will be able to do it, for his heart is after God.

Yesterday, when i was sharing the news to Hui Mei. She said one thing that further convicts me of what i am doing in NYP. It goes "What God can do there, God can do here as well". Exactly! God is a God of BP as well as a God of NYP! Wow, anticipating and waiting for God to pour fourth His blessings.

Hi all

2007-11-01T00:49:00.000-07:00

Since a month since i last blog. Haha.

I went for a fruitful mission trip at Batu Pahat. Thank God for all the people who have hosted us, they have definitely shown the spirit of Abraham when they welcomed us to the place. Guess what, they have one convert! Wow, after 4 months of stagnancy, God has finally shown favor on them.

I want to affirm each individual of the people in my group. Xiu Zhen, Jacob, Glenn, Shu Ling, Stewart and Joella. They have being initiative in talking to the people. I pray that after this trip, they will be even more motivated to go for more mission trip! Yeah!

Moreover, Christmas is coming soon. I have set an end goal of 16 for NYP B2. Haha. Thats not too tough! Each one of us just need to bring a friend to come to know God, for people who are more spiritually mature, get 2! Haha.

Yesterday, i spent the whole day with Thomas at his house. A fruitful time of understanding one another, playing music and singing together. We shared all the way till 5am in the morning. Haha. Though weary, i am refreshed by the Holy Ghost to go all way out for Jesus!

Verse for people who read my blog.
Colossians 1:25
I have become its servant by the commission God gave me to present to you the word of God in its fullness

We are servants of God to serve His people!

Windfall

2007-10-03T00:06:00.000-07:00

Oh, i will be going to mission trip tomorrow. I am overwhelmed by the excitement that is coming on ahead, anticipating certain things to take place. I want to make sure that when i go there, i can come back with very helpful advice and practical steps on evangelism.

My main focus of going there is not to just learn, but to really be a strong empowerment to the field workers there. I pray that we can really be a support and not a burden to the team over there.

Thinking about going to a mission trip, i will miss my caregroup members. Haha. Recently, i have built a rather strong bond with my group. Erm, really pray that God will really watch over the flock and take care of them well.

Till next week, goodbye.

Short life

2007-09-25T00:11:00.000-07:00

Just watch American Idol on youtube. I am missing Melinda again. I am certain that her career is going to be so fantastic.

Contemplating some things that have happened these few days. Sunday, i went to service with Benjamin. Oh my goodness, Pastor Christie message is so clear cut and direct. She rebuked the general mistake committed by the Filipino without any reservation. I also like one of the thing she mentioned.

"If you have no money in Christmas, don't show off and borrow money from people to buy Christmas presents for your friends. Not only will you land yourself in debts, the people that receive your present might not even remember you."

It is so true. Think about it, does God really want us to be so giving to the point that we are the losing end? Where is the wisdom? You can argue the point that you are trying to sow, trying to evangelise. But, is it an effective way? Are people touched by merely presents? Obviously not.

For me myself, i personally hated gifts, i prefer sincerely written cards. I find gifts to be too impractical and so not sincere.

Yeah, thats about it folks. Later i will be going for mooncake celebration. I pray it will be a fruitful time of bonding.

Long time no see

2007-09-18T18:57:00.000-07:00

Today is one of the best day i have ever lived in my whole life! Weird to say this since i have barely even lived through one quarter of the day.

This morning, after i have woken up, i couldn't find my spectacles! Arh! You can imagine how i strain my eyes when i am updating this blog. Haha. Aside from that, we have a brilliant caregroup yesterday. Even new believer enjoys it. Praise God. Many thanks to Thomas, Chris, Khok Yen and Benjamin for being part of the team to make this group lively.

This has to be one of the most interesting caregroup ever since Andrew started to lead this group. In the past, NYP 7 are made up of not so interesting people like me. So, people tend to see this group as boring and mundane. The bonds within the caregroup isn't so strong. People form clicks and wander around, indulging in their own small talks and activities, this time, i can really see God delivers us victoriously through it.

I must say God is really faithful that God is really faithful all this while to see me through many kind of happenings in my life. I thank God for my buddy Xing Xing who gives me the most practical help ever, and his presence in my life, his smile and laughter encourages me to go on. I thank God also for my ex-shepherd Andrew who has laid a very strong foundation in me, that now, even in the midst of struggles, i am still able to stand firm. Now, they are of a different group, sort of miss them, but i know we will see each other and spend time together again as one big family at the finishing line. Let's persevere and see it coming to pass.

Evangelical Church

2007-08-28T20:14:00.001-07:00

Oh, i listened to Tina Turner's Nutbush City Limit. I honestly did not really enjoy the song, probably because it was a classic rock song, a genre that Elvis Presley specialises in. Strange to say this but i love Elvis!

One of my sheep, Jia Ming, suddenly went disappearing for 2 days. Only to realise that it is because he is gaming whole day long and didn't realise that his phone is ringing. On monday, on tenterhooks, i instant message Chit Ming online, to check whether he is still in contact with Jia Ming. Only to realise that he has not been in touch with Jia Ming for a long time already. We prayed for him online, guess what, he replied for the first time in 2 days on msn. What a relief! Got his house number too. :)

I am recently planning for the mission trip to Batu Pahat, excited yet worried. I am thrilled by all the experiences that i am going to gain during the trip. Prayerfully, it can add to the foundation of church planting.

It is important to go church planting, especially if you call yourself God's children. I thank God for Hope Singapore who specially has a conference of long term mission, in hope to inspire and motivate the younger generation to break out of the 4 walls of Singapore.

If you are still hesitating, hesitate no more! Evangelism to the world is not a choice, it is a must. Furthermore, it clearly shows your love for people. If you can just love Malaysians and Singaporeans, you are not as loving as you may have thought yourself to be, you are just a loving Singaporean or Malaysians, because you love people of your own kind only. Look what Jesus did, He loved the Samaritan who is not an Israelite, His own kind, most importantly He loves you, who is not of His own kind as well!

Genesis 12:1
1 The LORD had said to Abram, "Leave your country, your people and your father's household and go to the land I will show you.

In immediate obedience, Abraham leaves his comfort zone and his family to the promised land.

Genesis 12:4-5

4 So Abram left, as the LORD had told him; and Lot went with him. Abram was seventy-five years old when he set out from Haran. 5 He took his wife Sarai, his nephew Lot, all the possessions they had accumulated and the people they had acquired in Haran, and they set out for the land of Canaan, and they arrived there.

Look what Paul says about preaching the gospel. I will not include the great commission in the list, since you all are so familiar with it

Romans 15:20-21
20It has always been my ambition to preach the gospel where Christ was not known, so that I would not be building on someone else's foundation. 21Rather, as it is written: "Those who were not told about him will see, and those who have not heard will understand."

Psalms 19:4
Their voice goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world. In the heavens he has pitched a tent for the sun

Mark 16:15
He said to them, "Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation.

There are so many more verses that talk about that. Prayerfully, it changes your mindset about evangelism

You may think, "I am too young to go for church planting right now, wait till i learn more of God, then i go"

This thought is garbage to me, you don't need a lot of knowledge to go. Yes, it may be true that financially we are all unable to do so currently. But, here is one thing you can do.

GO FOR MISSION TRIP!

Why?
1) See a burden to share to other people
2) Know what is it like to be part of the team to add strength to the field workers there
3) Learn from experience
4) It is not too expensive
5) Won't be too much to bear for you

I encourage all of you who are reading this blog, to go! If your parents disallow, pray! God will open a way for us. Let's really see this kingdom of God coming to pass!

Matthew 24:14
And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.

Great learning experience

2007-08-26T19:39:00.000-07:00

Woah. So excited! Waiting for my clip to be rendered complete. I am indulging in reading blog during my free time.

Great day on saturday, i was instructed by Debra in a Changi Airport STAR training program. At first, i am very quiet. Now, it seems a bit off for me to keep my mouth shut, i am consistently urged to talk, for some reason.

I dunno whether it is part of God's plan, but i am called by Debra to be in the demonstration of a "self introduction". Interesting, i have always been doing it in church, however, stunningly, i am at a loss of words because i didn't expect myself to be called on, maybe my name, "John" is not too difficult to pronounce. Haha

After the demonstration, it seems that the whole room knows who i am, during the time of mingling around, i don't have to be initiative, people keep coming to me. Then, i form a group with 9-11 malays with 2 indians. Gosh, i am taken aback, personally, i have a phobia towards malays, and to think now have to lead the malay group. I was called to represent the group to answer this question, "what benefit would i gain if i were a world class airport". I don't know how to answer in the beginning, but everything that the church and the bible teaches me, i threw it out during the presentation. Wow, Debra is really impressed, i was cheered on by a whole big group of Kallang Wave behind, what a sporty group of people! I really want to see i happening in my group. :)

The experience is great, during tea break. Debra came to me and say, "You did a great job". I was wowed! I really thank God for the church, it helps me a lot in my presentation skills, and the motivation to charge the people. The team and i went all around Changi Airport to take pictures, the malays really cooperate well. As a leader, i don't need to do much, i just say one thing, and they will organise themselves, and move together. Through this, i really see the unity of the malays, the willingness to give in to one another. I really want to see it in the church as well. Let's move to see it together.

Romans 12:16
16Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.[c] Do not be conceited.

Psalms 133:1
1 How good and pleasant it is
when brothers live together in unity!

To sum it up, unity makes a difference. Two men work better than 1 man.

Deuteronomy 32:30
30 How could one man chase a thousand, or two put ten thousand to flight, unless their Rock had sold them, unless the LORD had given them up?

Library worth of....

2007-08-20T00:55:00.000-07:00

Oh, currently in my lab slacking. Have get 20% of my scene done, guess i will do the remaining 80% in the next 2 days. I am profoundly thrilled by what i have gone through thus far in my life.

Yesterday, Shareen, Celestine and I went to sell goodies bag to the people wandering around East Coast. The 3 of us swept the whole Bedok Jetty, we asked almost every single person who was standing by the side. Some of the people look fierce, but we just approached them anyway. Inquisitive glances were thrown, not at us, but to the things we were carrying. We prayed and had a desire to see that we finished selling 15 goodies bag by 12. We were left with 2 goodies bag, we approached a big group of Malaysians who were chilling out at a bench, seemingly having a picnic. The loudest woman of the group first said, "Can the whole group of us just get 1 goodies bag?". Our answer to them is definitely. Then, one male by the side was saying, "can i get one of it as well." He bought it and then wanted to change it to a pink cap. We went back to exchange the cap for him. When we come back, they wanted another goodies bag because they like the cap, we went back again, and took one for them. Again, they wanted another one, haha. We made a total of 3 rounds. Not only did we manage to finish selling 15 goodies bag by 12, we sold a total of 17 packets! Praise God!

I was watching Pokemon yesterday before i went to work. I watched the episode which talks about a ninetales who have been living 200 years for it's master to come back. It brought me to think about the eternal life that God has given us, we might not have to wait 200 years for His return, but we are returning to Him in the end.

Hope Run Tomorrow

2007-08-18T09:52:00.000-07:00

Realize that i run out of title to put in my post, luckily the title won't be reflected on the computer screen. Haha.

Have a chat with Shelia on MSN now, she has been growing very well in God. She stands firm in her faith, displayed holy anger when people badmouths God. I can really see that soon, she will be a woman that can be greatly used by God. 2 years ago, i can still clearly remember that she is still someone that badmouths church, now she is defending against people who badmouths Jesus, what a massive turnaround! LOL! It brings back so many memories, haha. Zheng Ming and her are my only classmates, that i can truly trust and share. They are the ones who never abandon me and accept me as who i am. Thank God for them.

1 Peter 5:8-9
8Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

Yeah, today my unit went to watch fireworks, i can say it is absolutely amazing, to some of the people, but not to me. I find it extremely dull. Yet, interesting things is taking place during DMM. Hui Mei shared about the importance of having a spiritual descendant. It brings a conviction in my heart, eh, i don't want to move on just like that, and let the generation of Wei Hong dies, then at the end, there is a need to re-pioneer. I have a desire to see more and more me around the campus, with a heartbeat to go for mission. I want to see people moving right with God, going around the world, proclaiming the good news. I am excited for this journey and the new generation that is coming along. :)

Genesis 1:28
28 God blessed them and said to them, "Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air and over every living creature that moves on the ground."

New Blogskin

2007-08-17T02:07:00.000-07:00

Yo! Just change to a Naruto Blogskin. Actually, i wanted to put the prince of tennis rikkaidai picture, but i couldn't get a picture that suit the font color, so i gave up my search.

How is the blogskin? I pray it is nice, there is my favorite anime character Naruto inside. Thought of adding American Idol inside also, but later i guess. Wow, finally a blog that is not so plain, i want to get pictures to put inside the welcome part, if you have any good pictures, please send it to me.

Wow, finish rigging my character, touching on my scene currently, wasn't really busy in here also. Chatted with Jey, pretty interesting guy to talk with, call me a "Pet". Duh >-<

Just kidding, tomorrow is service again, pray for visitors to come. Benjamin has been doing pretty well in this kingdom, Praise God. Pray that he can be a disciple soon, and fulfill the great commission that Christ has called us to. Benjamin -> If you are reading this, i am urging you to haste your growth. :)

Many thanks to God who has been watching over me during the days i have been walking on the dry and weary land, He has really proven Himself as a stream of living water, whoever goes to Him will never get thirsty, be satisfied with what we have now, and God will be faithful, one day, you will see the promised land God has in store for you.

John 4:14
but those who drink the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life."

Isaiah 12:3
With joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation.

Hebrews 13:5
Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said,
"Never will I leave you;
never will I forsake you"

Unity + love with one another

2007-08-14T22:56:00.000-07:00

Toiling on my project right now. Arh! Can't wait for holidays to come, have been anticipating for it.

Yesterday, we went to play captain's ball at the hockey pitch. This is the first time i have played sports this year. Oh no, i sound very unhealthy, but i'm loving it. I hate all kinds of physical stuffs, except walking. Walking helps me very well in my reflection for the day and as well as my relationship with God. We played for a while yesterday, then went for dinner at AMK. Being involved in caregroup activity is very important, it builds up the unity of the group, as everyone comes together and share about their life, supporting one another, bearing with one another in love.

Ephesians 4:16

16From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.

As i grow spiritually mature in God, i realized that i am able to accept people more readily. I love to see a caregroup with people of all kinds of personality. This will greatly help in building up their love strong for people, as they have to love people who they will never thought of loving when they are a non-christian. Loving people with God's lenses is more valuable and treasured in the eyes of God, rather than just repenting to God with no accompanied action.

1 Peter 4:8

8Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

1 Corinthians 13:1

1If I speak in the tongues^[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.

Isaiah 1:11

11 "The multitude of your sacrifices—
what are they to me?" says the LORD.
"I have more than enough of burnt offerings,
of rams and the fat of fattened animals;
I have no pleasure
in the blood of bulls and lambs and goats.

Let's really dare to show love for one another. With love, we actually save ourselves from a multitude of sins, with love, we will trust and not lie, with love, coveting/murdering will not take place at all. With love, jealousy will turn to joy that the other party will do well. We have the ability to slightly change our perception of people, things might not be that bad. If you find that you loathe people especially brothers and sisters, the love of God has yet to deeply penetrate your heart. Accept God, and His love. You will realize that giving in to the other party without compromising the biblical principles is actually easy. :)

1 John 4:20-21

20If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.21And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his brother.

Yeah, so lets embrace each other deeply. 3 bears/bares to do so

1) Bare our hearts
Don't hide from people, share your problems to people you are closed with. There's no such thing as being independent in the eyes of God

2) Bear Hug
Be closely embraced with one another. Close proximity!

3) Bear with one another
Embrace each other's weaknesses. Encourage and motivate! Don't be too overly acidic in your words.

Ephesians 4:2
bear with one another in love

Conclusion
If you find there are a lot of differences between you and a brother/sister. Always use this similarity to love. All of us die in God, we are one body in Christ. Imagine you are the eyes and hate the ears, are you able to survive without the other?

1 Corinthians 12:14-26

14Now the body is not made up of one part but of many. 15If the foot should say, "Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 16And if the ear should say, "Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 17If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? 18But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. 19If they were all one part, where would the body be? 20As it is, there are many parts, but one body.

21The eye cannot say to the hand, "I don't need you!" And the head cannot say to the feet, "I don't need you!" 22On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, 23and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, 24while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honor to the parts that lacked it, 25so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. 26If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.

Thank God for everyone who participate in the game as well!

A race that i can't lose

2007-08-12T09:57:00.000-07:00

Today is a extremely exciting day for me. I went to harbor front to meet Jia Ming, and later i went for the Hope Resource meeting. There are a few points that i learn from Jean (a sister from the adult group)
- no words that imply negativity
like "wa lau", "shit", "die le", "oh my god", "damn"
all these words imply lack of faith and it don't build people up.
Ephesians 4:29
"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen."
- take pride in whatever we are doing, we are the ambassadors of Hope Resource
Colossians 3:23-24
"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, 24since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving"

As i was browsing through the bible today, i read this verse which is very interesting, and what we so often do
Titus 3:9
"But avoid foolish controversies and genealogies and arguments and quarrels about the law, because these are unprofitable and useless."
A lot of times, we are so caught up with investigating the laws, is the law still applicable to us after Jesus die on the cross and so many things. Yet, we forget that ultimately obedience to the scriptures are far more important than all these.
John 15:7
"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you."

These are my recent learnings. Pray that everything will run well tomorrow. Anyway, choosing the right words to speak is part of wisdom as well, it is biblical. We can see it from

Ecclesiastes 12:10
"The Teacher searched to find just the right words, and what he wrote was upright and true. "

If speaking with the right words is unwise, King Solomon will not be the wisest king at that time already.

Memories

2007-08-05T08:29:00.001-07:00

Memories in the corner of my heart.... *quoted from "The Way We Were" By Barbara Streisand*

I can't forget all the good things in my life. What kind of life my Heavenly Father has put me through these days. I want to give a sincere heartfelt thanks to You because not only have you bestowed on me an eternal life, but also Your love and Your perfect plan as well.

*Starts past*

Days are getting closer to my 2nd year in church. I can still vividly remember my 1st day in church. How Kar Shun followed up on me and gave me 4 dollars to get my 1st mp3. Haha. I owe it all to him, without him, i will never be able to know a savior who is out there reaching out to me.

From that day onwards, things have changed dramatically. When i first step into church, i wonder who is Jesus Christ. It is true Leslie and Kar Shun has shared a fair deal about Him, but i am still "blur" about this person. I dislike praise and worship because i don't know what i am singing, and what i sing, does not come from my heart. I do it for the sake of doing it. I dunno what is shepherd or all the "Ls". Even after i know of it, i don't aspire to be one because it is a waste of time. Haha

My heart is changed drastically after my shepherd Andrew birthed out into his own caregroup. I can still remember days when Ken, myself and Andrew have to spend time with each other. Well, it builds quite a strong bond. Haha.

*Ends past*

I have overnight shepherding with Leslie on friday. He is really a man of God's Word. He go into details with all his teachings. He uses the Word Of God to explain to me certain principles and why we do certain things. I learn from him that as leaders, there are so many things we can do.

Oh ya. Sanada wins Tezuka, I am so ecstatic!

This is the year one picture of Sanada, Yukimura and Yanagi. The 3 demons of Rikkaidai. Just love them!

Think Alike

2007-07-16T18:42:00.000-07:00

Sorry, have disappeared for a really long time, just isn't so faithful in blogging. Haha.

The world is in a total mess, people are out there void of the slightest conscience that God has placed in everyone's heart. It is a sad thing to see this kind of news circulating the globe, when i read all these news, i will be utterly crushed, burdened for the people.

Malicious tongues, scandalous speech are present in conversation everywhere. Christians hide from the world that is quickly getting out of hand. I am here blogging, wondering what will happen in 20 years time, is it going to be worse than what it is now? At the back of mind, my answer is "it certainly is".

As a pre-believer, i lived like a pre-believer, speak like one, act like one. I am ignorant of all the traumatizing events that have been happening all around the world. Life is boring, meaningless, absolutely dry to me. I loved listening to english pop songs. Justin Timberlake, Britney Spears, Blue are a must for me to live on. Slowly, American Idol changes my taste of music to the slightly older ones like Phil Colins, Whitney Houston. One year ago, i absolutely fall in love with classics. Aretha Franklin, Diana Ross, Nat King Cole, Billie Holiday. It is more peaceful. Haha

Recently, i learn a great deal in the YWAM leadership training course. It is awesome! I have learnt so many things from the speaker. The speaker spoke about his trip to India, how they put down all their comfort and to really serve the people there without any condition. You might be amazed, but they did not share Christ during the trip! Why is it so? We don't serve people only when we know we can share Christ to them, we serve even we can't share about God's love. This way, we already show God in our lives! Wow, so much things i learnt, i can flood the whole blog if i share about everything i learnt.

Jesus takes the wheel

2007-06-10T08:27:00.001-07:00

Jesus takes the wheel, take it from my hands, cos i can't do this on my own - Carrie Underwood.

Have you ever heard of this song? Please listen to it, if you have never done so. It speaks a great deal about Jesus to be the driver of your life, to lead your life's direction.

Yesterday, as i was praying to God, God gave me a vision! It has been a long time since God gave me a vision to live for. But He reminded me of 3 things i should really take note in my life:
1) Dependency on God - Do I depend on God for strength or do i depend on myself?
2) Discipline in life - Do I have the discipline to spend time with God faithfully, to resist distractions that come into my life?
3) Character - Am i living out the Christ in me?

Sometimes, i find that i have the inclination to depend on my capabilities and my own abilities to achieve what God has called me to do. Many times, i have forgotten that i am engaged in a spiritual warfare, and that God cannot be lacked in this battle. Without God, i can hardly experience joy in my life, everything that i do, it seems so dry and empty. When i sit down, peacefully, and pray to God, i felt the Holy Spirit reigning in me. Everything just springs to life again, vision is revived. I regain the strength to get back up on my feet again. Thank God!!!

John 15:2-8.

I am like the branch that is undergoing pruning right now. I have to stand firm and overflow in the Holy Spirit!

Love is not a fantasy

2007-05-22T05:08:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! Went missing for the past 2 months. Now, i am back again!

Last monday, celebrated mother's day. My mother won lottery and treated us to a meal. I have not eaten with my family for a long time, I really appreciate my mom, and i made use of this opportunity to show love to her.

Last week, my favorite American Idol Melinda Doolittle got the boot last week. Argh! I was devastated, never have i been so upset before. She has always been consitent and really good. She has never sung a single song that is bad enough for Simon to say bad, Simon predicted her to be in the finale of the competition and he is really upset and angry when she got eliminated. This clearly shows her consistency considering that even the most mean judge out of all the mean judges, can't stop praising her talent.

Nevertheless, Melinda still bow out gracefully after the competition. She kept smiling at the contestants. Anyway, she never intended to win this competition in the first place. She came for the audition because her friend is joining. Thank God that she audition, or else the best undiscovered taent in America will never be seen!

On sunday, it was water baptism, I am really thrilled that Khok Yen has finally gone for it to proclaim his faith to God. Yeah! Praise God for His always wonderful faithfulness. Congratulations to Geng Yuan, Rayient, Kai Sze and Dawn also. Walk obediently with God, He will see you through. Later, we celebrated Phoebe's spiritual birthday. I can't imagine it has been one year since i brought Phoebe to come to know God. God is good, all the time, merciful and graceful.

There is one thing, i pray it will never happen, for me to backslide away from God. God has been faithful in my walk with Him. He never forsake me, even when i disobey Him. I really want to show His love to all the people on this earth. Cg is not about growing in quantity or even quality only. It is a place where God has placed all His people in, where people are able to show love to one another. Love is an element that can never be missing from believers. If you are a believer without love, Christ has died for you for nothing! Considering the fact that He died for us out of love.

Now, knowing that Jesus loves, show His love to all the people, be it around you, or distant from you. People are suffering outside the four walls of Singapore! My burdens stretch towards all the people entangled in the sufferings of wars, famine, disease and complacency. God is coming back soon, it will come a day that the hour and day is unknown. Don't be caught sleeping naked!

I am glad to belong to a family instituted by God! I love my cg and my church!

World

2007-04-25T10:01:00.000-07:00

Hello! Back again after quite a long time. I hope i will write often.

I am here to witness a great harvest that will be taking place from now to the very end of May. I hope my team and myself will really persevere through during this dry period. Perfect 10 by the end of May!

I am very excited for the people in DMD, DET & Media Studies and Management course. I really hope to see a caregroup in each of this course. I want to see artists drawing animations to reach out to the world, the game producers to produce a game to reach out to all the gamers in the world, films/drama to reach out to the mass audience of the world. Haha. Thinking of it, the people nowadays can't detach themselves from the mass media. I really see it as a way of reaching out to the public!

Yesterday, got to know this person named Teck Soon! He is from DMD and that gets me really excited. Help me to pray for him that he will know God, so that he can starburst and bring many more people from DMD into the kingdom of God! Trust God in doing this and with much faith!

Basic facts of being a Christ follower

2007-03-30T08:48:00.000-07:00

Back from work! Haha. It is so exhausting. Though physically drained from work, i still have an immense amount of energy left for work! Praise God! His love is new every morning.

Lamentation 3:23 "They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."

Today, i tried to keep every area of my life obedient to God and in submission to my managers' authority in my workplace. Satan has come a few times to tempt me to secretly eat the ice cream that is situated at a not so noticeable corner of my workplace. I keep contemplating, "i should eat some, since i won't get caught anyway." The Holy Spirit immediately sounds in my mind, that i should live a life that is fully submissive to my manager's authority. No one will know, but God is watching and he wouldn't be pleased.

Romans 13:5 "Therefore, it is necessary to submit to the authorities, not only because of possible punishment but also because of conscience"

It is extremely important to constantly check our hearts for any negative thoughts about people. If you nurse your bitterness and believe so strongly that you are still walking right with God, then God will want to speak to you through this verse.

Ephesians 4:31 "Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice."

How can you still walk right with God when you have bitterness? God loathes it, be even more wary of this because....

1st Corithains 10:12 "So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall!"

Live a life pure and blameless before Jesus. Constantly repent to make sure you are still bearing fruits. We need Jesus in our life to bear fruits

John 15:5 "I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing."

Thats all folks!

Full of strangers

2007-03-29T05:43:00.000-07:00

Just back for the annual church camp! It is extremely exciting! Really excited to see new generation of people flooding in. We shall see God's power moving in Poly/DI!

Li Yan and Jasmine teaching is profoundly good! Li Yan challenges the people so much, that it is so possible for every course in every campus to have a caregroup. It is so possible! God is real! With that in mind, with just a faith as small as the mustard seed, you will surely see it come to pass.

During the camp, i have a strong sense of burden for the people. People are sick in the world. They need a doctor to heal them, who is none other than Jesus Christ. I realized that i didn't really trust God in some of the problems that are circulating around me, i merely believed God is there. For that, it is not true faith as faith is certain of what we do not see.

On the second day of the camp, Chit Ming and i have a chat before Geng Yuan and Nicodemus come into the picture. Geng Yuan and Nicodemus really have chemistry between them. Want to see them walking well with God. Chit Ming is growing so rapidly, so different from the first day i met him. I am really thrilled by how God has transformed each individual life. God is able to do anything, if you have faith!

From the day i received Christ till today. I have never remembered regretting that i have made a personal decision to receive Christ. Yes, it is true that without Him, i can have more freedom in doing things outside the church. But, this notion always brings me back to His love that He has shown to us right on the cross. He died for the unworthy, the poor, the rich, the sick, Muslim, Buddhists, Jewish, everyone! I am unworthy of Him but He died for me. His strong sense of burden, He is really a fantastic, relational God. He helps me through my problems, forgives me when i come back to Him after pleasing my sinful self. He is slow to anger, ever so merciful and gracious. I really thank Him for being in my life, without Him, i could acheive much, but they won't last.

Last day

2007-02-28T08:13:00.000-08:00

Hey. Watch American Idol tonight. Really think that Nicholas, AJ, Blake and Chris Richardson did well. Chris Sligh and Phil Stacy are not too far behind though. They are now my top 6 males favorite for the top 12.

Today is my last day when i will drill on my project. Mr Leo has helped me a great deal in it. In fact, he teaches us very patiently and even willingly stay in school after 6 all the way until 8 plus to help us. Though he is rather quiet and negative at times, he still comment it in a way that won't hurt us. He is rather sensitive and straight-foward. Lol. My favorite lecturer to this date BY A MILE!!! I sort of like programming after that! Now pondering to go Games Programming or not as TD is all scripting and i don't like it too.

There are several teachers in my life that i really thank God for. Mr Soong is a teacher that i will never forget for as long as live. We have spite him, disobey him, quarrel with him for lots and lots of times. Despite all these, he never held it in his heart; in fact, he even willingly step out of his curriculum time on saturday and sunday to teach us. Never did i ever see such great teacher in my life. He is one of the teachers that is in my heart and not in my mind.

The next teacher will be Mdm Aishah. A lot of "preaching" from her. I remembered when i was secondary 3, i am one of the hopeless student sitting at the back of the class, gambling away with Kian Boon and gang most of the time. She never gave up hope on me and pressed on trying to "preach" as hard as she could to knock me back to senses. In the end, her efforts never go down the drain. When i was secondary 4, i worked as hard as i could. Though my grades are not good, i was satisfied; for it was "some results" to me. LOL. She helped me back on my feets when i fell really badly.

Coming to teacher in my spiritual life, I really want to thank God for my spiritual mentor Andrew. Through this time, he has helped me a lot, in my life. He builds up the foundation of Christianity in me. Though he is not with me 24 hours per day, i still feel that he is with me. LOL. Don't misunderstand! It is not wrong to love your shepherd. He may not be the best shepherd, or someone who is flawless in his communication, but he really has the humility to learn. He never belittles himself for he knows so clearly he is God's creation and God thinks the best of us. Thus, whenever i belittle myself in the area of leadership, he will always correct me. He has the heartbeat of God, "he thinks the best of everyone, no matter what kind of person they are in the past". Just like how God believes Paul when the latter is the worst of sinners.
He sees potential in me when people don't. He is one of the two people who encourages me to be a shepherd when i am still introverted and rather new. Thanks Shepherd!!!!

Personal note: Don't bother finding out who is the other person who sees potential in me. You will never get the answer! LOL...

Answer is not God or Jesus. So save it! Haha

Take Me Home

2007-02-06T19:00:00.000-08:00

How i long to be back home. I am sure all of you would want to be home. I can't wait for God to bring me to a "home" where it will last eternally.

Recently, i am reading a book, "Jesus on leadership" by C. Gene Wilkes. People who have known me long enough will realise that i haven't finished a book after so long! Haha. I admit i am a bit unfaithful in reading, Thank God that i didn't shove this book into the shelf but put it on top of the desk. Everytime i look at the book, that is collecting "fresh" dust, a sense of guilt will hit my heart so hard that i would want to know more about the content of the book.

The book talks about leadership, spiritual leadership. How Jesus leads His flocks. In one incident, when James and John request to sit next to Jesus when they enter His Kingdom. The other ten disciples flare up and rebuke them. Jesus did not rebuke them, but instead say that in order to be with Him. They have to go through pain, and even deny self-rights to serve the people. In (Mark 8: 34), Jesus mentioned, "if anyone would come after, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me." It clearly explains that if we are after God's heart, we must first crucify our sinful-self on the cross first and do what Jesus has done and obey Him whole-heartedly.

There's no point talking too much about ourselves. Sometimes, we get too carried away with conversations with our friend that we will want to boast about how much God has transformed us. It will cause much negativity to the other party as all the things you have been saying is about yourself. When we are transformed, we will shine, people will be able to witness it without you telling them so much about it.

I really want to take this time to present my thanksgiving to God! Shelia, my best friend received Christ 3 weeks ago. I have been with her through thick and thin, through multitudes of drawing, storyboards and digital images. In September 2005, she showed her act of sacrifice by helping in my studio project when she has yet finished hers on the last day of the project. All these, touch my heart. When God shows himself clearly last year that He is real, in answering all my specific prayers and speaking with His reassuring voice, i was convinced that if my best friends and family don't come to know God, the destiny is different. It gives me a sense of urgency to bring them to come to know God, no matter how or what. I prayed for Shelia 1 year. Lots of rejections come in during this process as she was rather busy with her school and work. 3 weeks ago, i told her to come on sunday if she was unable to make it on saturday. She agreed and she crossed the line of faith! It is such a rejoicing moment for me, all my hard work and perseverance didn't go down to drain. I thank God for Jia Hui too, who come all the way down for service that day even though she has a terrible migraine. I can really see us functioning as the body of Christ when we sow on Shelia. Lol. I am sure this is not going to be the end of my evangelism, i am going to press on and see more and more people coming to know God.

Cheers,
Wei Hong aka Jasper John :p

Time is running out

2007-01-16T04:54:00.000-08:00

The star is shining. Everybody is busy with work, guess that is school life. Haha

Ministry in God is always that great. Fellowship and everything else. When people needs to juggle between these 2, people will always forsake God's kingdom first. Why is it so? Lol. Maybe i can't really understand but i still want to love God, whole-heartedly.

These days is going to be very easy. It is going to be real testing and moulding, May be something that is beyond my capability to handle but i am going to let God handle everything. I need to depend on Him more and more each day.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

Back to Basics

2007-01-15T06:12:00.000-08:00

Today, i went out to outreach with Jia Hui and Ken. Initially, our main focus is on DMD students, but things start to take on a twist when we can't find any "solo" DMD students, so we outreach to the people from other courses.

I was rather nervous for it and thanks to some feedback from Jia Hui, i sound a little bit scary when i do the survey. The way i started my conversation is a bit too abrupt and hostile, the people ain't really opened, but some of them are opened in the end. Through this, i learn that, i have not really been out there to outreach recently, so i got rather fearful of speaking in public again. It sort of brings me back to the basics, to get our butts up and get our hands dirty for GOD! Through this week, i will be outreaching everyday to gather a pool of year 1 contacts to focus on. It is a win-win situation, first i can get some contacts and secondly, i am able to build up the momentum for next week! Really pray that God can bring a revival in DMD and all the other courses. 2 more months to go. Let's live to see His vision fulfilled!

Ephesians 2:10 - For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

See you tomorrow. Tata!

Combined Team Rally!

2007-01-14T09:52:00.000-08:00

Today i attended the combined team rally. Interestingly, it was really a time that brought me to think about MISSIONS! You are right! MISSIONS!

After attending the mission trip to Melacca last September. God placed a seed of burden in my heart, for the people in the Middle East and most vitally, Israel! From that time on, i really prayed that 1 day, i will be visiting these countries and understanding more about them.

Another principle i have learnt, we have got to learn to leave the head table seats and served the people!

We have to reflect on this. Are we leaving our own comfort zone in order to that. The head table seats are considered honourable to all the people. Are we willing to forgo the glamor and the attention we receive and mingle with the people who are poor? Who are considered the worst kind of people? When we say we are serving God, are we choosing people to serve? Are we choosing a group of people to outreach to? Are we neglecting the salvation of "worldly" people? These are a few points for us to ponder about.

Learn from the example of Jesus. As a great teacher. He don't preach to people who are not "worldly". All the people He preached to have a mindset of the world as they have yet to know God. He eats with sinners despite cynical glances from the Pharisees. As God, do He even need to do so? Is it not the love and compassion He has on us that He don't mind carrying up the cross to be crucified even though we are unworthy? Jesus don't pick people to share the gospel to, as His followers, we must follow His footsteps! He leaves the head table seat as a God, we must too, leave our own head table and deny ourselves, our rights to maximize the glory of His kingdom!

Phillipians 2:5-11

5 Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: 6 Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, 7 but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. 8 And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death— even death on a cross! 9 Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, 10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, 11 and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

Here again!

2007-01-13T07:42:00.000-08:00

Wasn't posting anything a whole month! Lol! I decided to make a comeback in blogging again. Hopefully, i am able to take time off for it.

I was rather tired today. Thanks to Andrew gift of healing and God, i am refreshed. Today service is absolutely great! I learn the analogy of a "spiritual alarm clock". At times, God used it as a warning to us but, despite He is patient and slow to anger, He will still slap us awake so that our day can be more fruitful rather than just sleeping it away.

God is forever faithful! His love for us is never-ending. I can blatantly remember how He is so real in my life in Year 2006! Last year, it is the only time i spend the whole year throughout with God. There are a lot of ups and downs, disappointment, frustration but He never gives up on me. I thank Him for that. Here is a brief recount of year 2006.

January
I spend the first 6 hours of the first day of Year 2006 at Loyang Industrial Park, blaming God's people. Haha. I slept at the bus stop there, greeted "Happy New Year" by several bypassers there. I wasn't at the least interested by what is happening around me. At that time, i am very hurt by the people in the community. Nobody notices my presence, i am someone who blended into the wall. I left the chalet in a pique. I told God, "I don't need a community as long as i know Him." Despite my stubborness, God still embraced me. He answered my first prayer of the year by stopping the rain when i was spending my time at the bus-stop, praying sincerely for the rain to stop so i can go back to the chalet and take my bag to leave. The rain stopped, i go back to the chalet. Due to some discomfort in going into the chalet through the front door. I crept in from behind only to realize that Li Yan came in and thought that i am a thief! Lol. So funny. She spoke into my life, i am ecstatic that God spoke through her. She widens my perspective on the importance in mixing around with people. Jia Hui later came in and told me that she used to be someone like me. Of course, i don't believe! Haha. Li Yan later encouraged me to stay but i still choose to go.

That day when i go home. I felt empty and depressed. I felt like doing something out of my zone. But, i wasn't ready to do it! I tried mixing around in my class, other than Shelia, Crystal and Eugene, it didn't really succeed, i am demotivated. A new-believer came into our caregroup that time, his name is Huzaen, now he has left the church for somewhere he deems as better, another church which is. At that time, Ken followed up on him. I tagged along with Ken to Kinokuniya as i really want to live life out of my zone.

Lots more to come..

Thanksgiving
Thank God for Yuan Wen and Brian to come to know Him!! God is going to move mightily in His ministry

Legend has it

2006-11-30T20:52:00.000-08:00

Well, it seems that i am pretty tired these few days to do any blogging. I blogged anyway.

I am in class today. Waking up early ain't no easy thing. I struggled to keep myself awake while i was at the Mrt. I read the Bible, the book of Ezra, learn some pretty important principles from the letters that were written to King Darius to rebuilt the temple in Jerusalem. I pretty pity the Israelities. They are taken into captivity by the Babylonians and are enslaved to them. At first glance, God seems really unforgiving. He can't forgive what Manasseh has done even though he repented after God knocked some senses into him. But, as i continue to read on, i realized that God has already been putting up with them quite a lot since the last years of King Solomon. A few good kings came along, like Jehosaphat, Hezekiah and Asa, but most of them didn't really end well. God continued to show His mercy to the people but Judah, the tribe He has chosen, just continue to get more evil. Manasseh just added on to God's wrath on the people.

Whenever i am spending my quiet time, i thought of the kings in the past. They have faith in God, rely on God to lead their people. But, they still ended off pretty badly. At the end, they didn't put their faith in God even after they faced critical situation. Sometimes, it doesn't mean you will end off well when you started off well. Asa started off well, everything he does, he does it with favor in God's eyes, he even deposed his queen mother for building an Asherah Pole. But, at the end, he depended on King Aram rather than God. During the last two years of his life, when he was inflicted with a disease, he did not humble himself before God to seek healing from Him. He died with that disease. I guess no one wants to be like him. It also serves as a important lesson to us also.

Don't start off well and end off bad. Why not start it well and end it glamorously. We want to end the race of faith gloriously. Not start a race running fast, panting and walking at the end.

World

2006-11-16T07:15:00.000-08:00

Hey! Online now to make a quick post. I have a 8am lesson tomorrow. I am definitely going to rest early today.

Last sunday, i learn about the tabernacle prayer. I try that. Wow! Got to admit that it is really refreshing. It is almost as if i just entered the tabernacle, and into the most Holy Place, where only the high priests who are consecrated are able to enter once every 40 days. It is really ministering. I have faith it is gonna bring my ministry to a greater height, if i were to walk in His ways! Amen!

Just now, during lesson. I stop by some websites to read about the countries that are surrounding Israel. I am rather surprised to learn that in order to become a citizen in Saudi Arabia, you have to be a Muslim. Can't believe it. I admit i was rather shock at this. There is really no religious freedom in the country. Nevertheless, they respect the religion of their foreign workers. These people are only restricted to be in certain parts of the country.

I really feel like going to Israel. I want to see the country that God has chosen, the place where Jesus has walked on. I want to see Jerusalem. Jerusalem is known as the third most holy place to the Muslims and they are to visit the temple there at least once in their lifetime if they are able to afford it.

Through these, i have a deep burden for the people in Middle East. Really pray that they will come to know God before the end times. Jesus wants everyone to be saved, none to be left out. Let's strive to our best and allow God to work through us when we are evangelising in the campus. See the urgency. If we are unable to do it in the campus, where there is religious freedom in the country, how are we able to evangelise in places where there is no religious freedom at all? Let's get our spirit ready and strong.

2 Peter 3:9
The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.

2006-11-06T08:52:00.000-08:00

It is very late now, i will make a quick post and head off to bed.

It is rather interesting at work today. My operational manager is there in the restaurant the moment i stepped into it. Unusually, he is in a pretty good mood. He puts on a christmas hat on my namesake, which is a scarecrow. It looks pretty awful, but when he asked me for my opinions, i just said it looks alrigh. Haha. He bought a lot of chocolates for us and let us eat even when we are at work. For the whole day, only 3 tables of customers and yet he is not angry. Wonder why? Erm...

Hope that tomorrow will be a good day.

Dependancy

2006-11-04T08:35:00.000-08:00

Back again. 2 days ago, i got a rather bad gastric pain in the morning. Didn't get any better in the afternoon. I went to the doctor and he reminded me to take care of my diet, and warned me of the danger of not watching it. Haiz, guess i will be more faithful in having my meals at a regular time from now on.

Have a really great time in caregroup 2 days ago. At the last minute, i told Andrew that i am ready to lead worship. Haha. I didn't practise at all. I was actually scheduled to work that day, but due to my stomach, i am able to get a MC from the doctor. Honestly, i didn't really know the 2 songs very well. So, i sang the song with mild confidence. I was a little bit hesistant, a bit unsure. But, thank God, it seems to lead people to God which is the whole master plan of worship.

Yesterday meeting is great! We set goals for Who Kills Santa 2. Set a rather high goal. Nonetheless, i am gonna do it because God has empowered me to do so. Sometimes, i enjoy the community of church people, it is always better than going out to the world and mix around with people of a different vision. But, aint staying phlegmatic for much longer, have to go out at the end of the day. Haha.

Today is rather tough. I went to work with a sleepy head today. Donnalie has a wide smile spread across her face even though it is exceptionally busy today. I realize that it is so important to have joy in our hearts. Joy that is drawn from the Holy Spirit and not by surrounding circumstances. I remained joyful throughout the day. I want to enjoy life when i am still a student, for i know that when i go out to the working world, more stress and hard work is going to pile on.

Any comments can address to me personally. Lazy to add in a tagboard now. :)

The date is unreliable, i post it on 05 November 2006
Isaiah 12:3
With joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation.

Bravo

2006-10-29T06:39:00.000-08:00

Hey! Back again. Encountering some problems these few days. God has been calling me to persevere. I am too weak to face it. Emotions start to turn bad. The spirit is getting weaker and weaker each day. God reminds me to love myself. I cannot stay myself for much longer. I need to have spiritual breakthroughs. I need to die to myself. I can't cling on to my strongholds and hope foolishly that God will use me. No! I can't!

To make matters worse, my closest friend in church haven't been giving me much support. He now holds on to his worldly values, forgetting that God is a supernatural God who has no limitations. The covenanted relationship i have with him has been wavered pretty badly. At times, i find that we are more of a normal friend. We don't spur each other to grow, we just pass remarks off people. How i want to have the kind of friendship Jonathan have with David.

Nonetheless, God is still my best buddy. He wipe the tears from my eyes, being with me through thick and thin, carrying me when there is scorching fire below. I need to put the faith that he will burn all my carnal desires away. I can't keep saying, "I can't get over this." I want to have an excellent relationship with Him. He is the most faithful i can find. He will give me thick barrier against Mr Sa.Tan!

Thank God for Eilton today. He is really pro-active in reaching out to Guan Quan. It makes Guan Quan opens up a lot. In fact, he enjoys his day! 2 Thessalonians 3:3 But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one

Relevance

2006-10-26T09:35:00.000-07:00

Hey. Being down with a little bit of flu today. I will try to make this post short. Haha

Today, i overslept again. I want to wake up, but my brother took my phone and placed it in another room. Thus, i missed the alarm. When i woke up, i wanted to shout at him, but i somehow manage to hold it back. Thank to God's grace, my brother isn't very angry with me for showing him some bad spirits, but as a result, my mother now know that i lost my phone! Argh! Bad timing.Then, she nagged at me for a little while. I listened, not so intently to her and after she have her words said, she left the house, leaving the whole house snoozing. Haha.

I loved how David tests his mighty men. Haha. All my life, i am very scared when people test me on something. Whenever this happens, i will shrugged it off. I will answer, "Why should i do this? I don't earn money from it." It is due to my pride that i didn't answer immediately that i was terrified or even petrified! I am afraid that i will fail the test and people start to despise me. This mindset terrifies me no longer.

During work, as i was slacking there, i saw an order check without receipt. I need to key it into the computer before i can print the receipt. So, i decided to take a leap and try. As i was keying it in, i made mistakes. But, as i was making the mistakes, i realized that when we all first started out, we will make tons of mistakes. It is only after we experience it and practise, the number of mistakes we commit decrease, thus saving time and increase in productivity. It is true that we still make mistakes, but it doesn't undermine practice, as practice makes us better in doing something.

Yeah! Thats the end of my post. Good night. Going to sleep. Learning horrible "for loop" tomorrow. God blesses me and you. Bye!

Test of Faith

2006-10-21T09:52:00.000-07:00

Have been some time since i last post. I have got a lot of things this week to write. Lol. But, i will try to make it as short as possible.

This week has been really a week of discipline for me. Everyday, i slept less than 8 hours, which is only 70% or less of the sleep i required daily. But, i find that i have really a great time wrestling with God about the things i want. I have faith that He is going to give it to me. Maybe not now.

I find that as i am growing in God. God always place certain challenges in my life, which i am the most afraid of. Everytime, when i have the desire to do more for God, testings will come and it never fails to come. In the past, i always depend on my own strength to overcome it. Because of this reason, i always get a solution that is better, not the best. I always overlooked the fact that if i sit down and be still before God. He will have the best plan for me. In conclusion, I need to put more trust in him.

I need to have physical breakthroughs, i need to eat more vegetables! I need to exercise more too. I will go running if i am free from all my school works and ministry. Doing sit-ups and stuffs maybe necessary also. Haha. Just now, Pastor Jasmine have my testimony read. I thank God that He has freed me from the bondage of the lies i have been telling to my secondary school classmates. Zheng Ming made a remark that somehow or rather touches me today, "Friends doesn't have to be very rich." I am glad that he is so forgiving. At first, when i heard my testimony is going to be read out. I am a bit scared because he is visiting today. But, Praise God, He worked it out again. Haha

Thats it for today. Will be faithful in posting!! Haha

Surprise!

2006-10-13T07:48:00.000-07:00

Surprised! Never updated for a long time. Now, i update. Lol

Last month, though my caregroup did not grow in numbers. But, the quality of the group is definitely improving. Witness Choon Phang, Chris and Guan Quan growing bigger and bigger in spiritual size. Lol. Really want to encourage them to be shepherd of God's flocks. Yeah!

This month is going to be a month of intensive sowing. There is gonna be a lot of things growing around! Meeting contacts, going to see how Shelia has been doing and catching up with her. Pray that she will know God! Zheng Ming, my long lost friend, who has been brought back to me by Christ, is coming to service tomorrow. Praise God! Pray for him that he will be a little bit more simple minded. His thoughts are pretty complicated! I also pray that De Ming will receive God as well. Haha. Want to see more and more people receiving Jesus. Almost forgot, pray for Chin Hong also!

I am really excited this month! Dunno why. This excitement i just can't contain inside. I will wait patiently for God to move! Will really be practical in the things i teach. Pray to see NYP soar higher and higher. Most importantly, really pray that God's kingdom will be flooded with souls that come from everywhere, be it Singapore, America, Canada and even Israel who God has chosen in the first place. Looking forward to praise and worship in heaven! Will be willing to leave the world only when 1st: My parents cross the line of faith and receive Jesus! 2nd: When i fulfill God's will for me on earth. Or else, i will cry out to God to extend my life just like how Hezekiah did!

Servant Leader

2006-09-07T19:46:00.000-07:00

I realize it is so important to be a servant leader.

In the world, people want people to serve them the higher they go.
In God's kingdom, people need to serve others the higher they go.

Can see it clearly from Mark 10:44-45

Being a shepherd is to love. Being a careleader, is to CARE AND LEAD!

Sometimes, i wonder whether i can be a leader. I am still so spiritually young. I have only been in Christ for one year. However, God knocks me awake. He tells me that spiritually young doesn't mean spiritually immature. From there, i realize that though i still have a lot of things to learn, it doesn't mean that i cannot impart, as long as what i am going to teach is from the Bible.

I just attended the leadership camp. Even though, i missed quite a lot due to my work, i am very willing to learn everywhere. A leader doesn't necessary mean that you need to graduate from the camp to become one. He is someone that is so sure of God's calling that no matter what, he will make sure he rises up as a leader.

Before the camp, i wonder, will i be secure if Andrew didn't pick me to go for the leadership camp? But, now, i can say for sure, "Yes, i am called to be a leader!" It is the vision for God that drives me on to leadership and not the camp!

I come to admire some leaders. Really want to take this chance to affirm them. Hehe.
Hui Mei - Learn from her that as much as we manifest gentleness as fruits of the spirit, we need to make sure we are firm in the message that we convey to our people, so that they may be convicted!
Leslie - Learn from him that we should embrace the Word of God more than anything else. It is a lamp to our feets. It provides us directions in life.
Andrew - Learn from him to be serious in the things we do, planning is necessary!
Ming Xiu - Learn from her to be flexible in our plans. To analyse situation before we make decisions
Li Yan - Learn from her to be effective in the way we convey our message

These are leaders i aspire to be! I want love the Word of God like Leslie, sensitive to the Holy Spirit like Hui Mei and be as humble as my shepherd Andrew! I want to be an effective leader, who loves the people like himself and put into actions all the things he say! I want to serve!

John 13
Jesus didn't come to earth to be served! Are you willing to abandon yourself to serve?

the willing to obey spirit

2006-08-17T05:15:00.000-07:00

A few days have gone by.

These few days, i have been rushing my project, doing the best i can to make the story work out. Interestingly, today, for a straight 5 hours. Phoebe and i have been rushing the script of the story, only to find that we finished only 1 out of 94 locations at the end of the day. Dejected and dispirited, only to know that this is just the tip of the iceberg

Today, i have been trying to get to Chris. He did not answer my calls, did not reply my sms. Khok Yen just phoned me not too long ago that he will not be able to attend the caregroup. My heart dropped. I just hope that this wasn't the reality i am in.

Nevertheless, i need to muster the courage to continue to believe that they will change. During my most disobedient time in my whole walk with Jesus. He didn't lose hope in me, but he continue to be patient with me, always hoping that i will come back to Him and repent. This is the spirit i want to capture from Jesus.

Just now, Andrew actually asked me to tear the color papers to welcome the people coming to our caregroup this saturday. Initially, i am pretty unwilling to do so. But, i do it anyway. I want to be fully obedient to my shepherd. I cant be obedient to God if i don't obey the leaders He has appointed for me. I cannot allow myself to be affected in the area of obedience just because i am in low spirit. I pick myself up and do the things he asked me to do without any further enquiries.

This reminds me of what Leslie told me. He said God will bless if you obey without having any condition. Obedience with conditions attached is never true obedience. I really want to obey my leader fully, not so that God can bless me, though it is part if the reason, to be frank, but is to test whether i am truly obedient. Initially, i thought tearing color paper is just a minor thing, it is alright not to obey because i am sad and disheartened. But, when i come to think of it. I can never obey my leaders in major things if i don't obey my leader in small little things first.

Today, is really an important lesson learned. I learn that i should obey no matter what. Disobedience is first that separates Adam from God. I really pray that i can obey leaders and most importantly to obey His words in whatever situation. I want to be willing to obey. Pray that i will get this spirit right.

Luke 11: 28
Blessed rather are those who hear the Word of God and obey it

A little less conversation

2006-08-14T02:39:00.000-07:00

Really praise God for all the things He has done!!

Today, on msn. One of my contact, Guan Quan told me that he wanted to know more about God. I was taken aback by this, i thought he just wanted to know about christianity. I told him that to know God, it is just by a simple prayer. Amazingly, he said he wanted to say this prayer!! Praise God, he is my second contact after Phoebe to cross the line of faith.

I wanted to call him to say the sinners' prayers together, but, due to his shyness. He is unwilling to let me call him. I couldn't think of a way to say the sinners' prayer with him. I called Andrew, twice and he didn't answer. I began to think of an alternative, i phoned Leslie and thankfully, it connected. He told me not to say the sinners' prayers over msn but to ask him out for a lunch and say it together with him.

I asked him out for lunch. Yes, thankfully, he is willing to come out and meet me for lunch. I was elated. After we have decided to meet for a while, i logged off my account and went to look up for my old friends, Shelia and Crystal for lunch. I was so happy that i cannot even finish the chicken rice, that is served at a rather normal proportion to me, usually. We chat for a while, Shelia and Crystal whine about their project team leader. I was grateful that my team is great, supportive and very willing to work even when i was not around. Sometimes, it just give me a tinkling feeling that i wasn't giving my best efforts which is true to a certain extent. Nonetheless, i am very obliged to work hard for this project and lift some unnecessary burden for my teammates. With my conversation with Shelia and Crystal, i began to realize that, since last year, my life has been undergoing a rather significant transformation. I am more courageous in giving them suggestions on what they can do to maximize the potential of their team members.

After i have lunch with my good old friends, they went back to their labs and i met up with Andrew and Ken. At first, i was afraid that Guan Quan will be frightened of the presence of so many people. When i meet him up, i asked him whether is it alright for my friends to come along. He says, "can." I was relieved. We have lunch together. We talked about certain things and i learn that he is actually very fond of soccer. Andrew chatted to him a few things regarding NCC and from that time on, his heart is opened to Andrew.

We went to the dome and say the sinners' prayers. I was very grateful to God. I had only met him personally once, and other times, we just have conversation in msn. The least did i expect is that he trusted me so much that he shared some of his problems to me, even when we just met each other only once. I am thankful to God that i appear to be trustworthy and credible to him that he is willing to share his life openly. We prayed for him, talk to him regarding certain matters in Christianity and we went to the library to have a little 'quiet time'.

I introduced to him Phoebe, Xue Lian and Xing Xing. He reminded me of myself in the past, he is so shy that it is relatively difficult for him to have a conversation with them. He studied and we talked and i realize that we need to have a little less conversation or we will distract him from studying.

I was very moved by God for the things He has done to Guan Quan. He wanted His creations to come to know Him that He will resort to His means to make the people want to come and know Him. His love is so great of a Father that no matter how little faith we have in Him, He will always find a way to make it happen so that we can feel His love. In this case, which is letting a shy contact open his heart to me when it seems virtually impossible for a shy person to open up their life to a stranger.

Romans 8:38-39
For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Any Friend of Mine

2006-08-07T09:17:00.000-07:00

Long time since i last blogged. I hope no one misses it.

These 2 years have been a great and exciting year. I have witnessed Phoebe crossing the line of faith, experience God myself even to a greater height and having 2 sheeps, both Khok Yen and Chris.

God is a great shepherd. I really want to obey God fully, but i know i cannot do so if i don't submit to my spiritual leader Andrew fully. Sometimes, i am just so stubborn that my heart is like a stone that even arrows can't leave a scratch on it. These few months, when i was alone, lost in the wilderness, God has always been by my side, giving me extremely clear directions, assuring me that He is always with me when i feel insecure. He is the one that softens my mother's heart so much that my mother, instead of saying that i am brainwashed all the time, is willing to come to the Mandarin Church service. Praise God! I will be very happy if my mother comes to know Jesus. She has been through so much hardship that i really hoped that her future will be a luxurious one, in heaven.

Now, as a shepherd, i felt really happy to take care of both Khok Yen and Chris. I extremely like Khok Yen personality, he is very likeable. He is rather quiet when it comes to group outing but he makes a lot of friends, astonishingly. As for Chris, he is very noisy. There is not even one time that he will really keep quiet. But, i am thrilled to see how his life has changed since he knows God. Now, he is more willing to learn though he likes to insult and argue. Haha. Nevertheless, i am assured that God can do something, i am waiting for a second round of amazement, when he really says something that is in the Bible and not his personal views. Both sheeps really challenge my thoughts and really teach me how to sacrifice both my mangas and animes for them. Nonetheless, i am very willing to do so, even more willing to do more because it is God who drives me, nobody else.

Shelia was with me during my bad times. My caregroup comprising Andrew, Ken, Jia Hui, Hui Mei, Joey, Xue Lian and Celestine were with me during my rainy days. God is with me all time no matter good or bad. I forgot somebody, haha, and now i remember, he is Xing Xing.

Xing Xing might not be the most spiritual man, might not be the most God-driven man, might not even touch the bible, but, i am really glad that God has placed him in my life. He is a good helper, a great brother and even a better friend. Of all the times, he is like a killer of my most lonely time. People might argue that he is not spiritual, blah blah, tell me to stay away from him. That is ridiculous!! I vividly remember a time that he inspires me so greatly that i want to charge for God. Some people just think he is a nuisance, just because of his unwholesome talk and unspiritual life. Instead of spending the time to talk about him, why not help him! To me, he is the person who don't know how to say No to helps than any of the person i have met in my life. Everyone ought to learn this kind of spirit.

I have 1 contact, his name is Guan Quan. People, regardless of where you are from, please pray for Him to come to know Jesus. Jesus is the only one who can helped him from his problems. I really hope that his heart is opened to Jesus. He really needs Jesus!!

The real thing

2006-05-02T22:19:00.000-07:00

Fantasia is the real thing. Who else? Absolutely no one else can be the real thing. Not a single person around me can sing half as well as her. You might disagree with me but my stand will still be this.

Back to American Idol, who can sing as well as Fantasia? Paris? Mandisa? Kelly? Clay? Jasmine? Nope. However, they are much more likeable than Fantasia. Well, Fantasia lovers, we do not have any choice at that since people are out just looking for pleasant looking females, not vocally pleasant female artist.

Fantasia sang one song before. something about the way you look tonight. It is excellent, but Cowell still has something negative to say about it. Nevertheless, people still love her, people in America i mean. She can almost hit any notes in a song and the most essential thing is that she can feel the song. No one except her ever in the competition has ever cried singing a song (besides from Jasmine and Vonzell who cried not because they feel the song). She is totally a fabulous artist if you ask me.

Recently, there is some buzz going around Singapore which is totally dumb. People are wondering who they should vote for. Haha. Vote for PAP or the opposition party. It is all up to you, but i will say PAP is a better choice. Look how Singapore is developed now. If you let someone who just said without having any practical actions that they can really govern the country properly, will you be secure about your future? What if they are just people who are slick in their speech but completely bad at really doing something to make Singapore a better place to live in. I am telling you, the 5 years will be dreadful if that really happens. So, my end remark is that PAP is the real thing.

Back to my life at a very personal level. Life is very busy. Projects and assignments are pouring in like nobody's business. Now, i really need some personal time. Sorry if i am going to disappoint you in some areas. I am getting a rest. A hectic life always need a good long rest in between. Farewell. I am very vulnerable to emotional attacks these few days. Disturb at your own risk and i will be nasty and mean both by showing my temper on the face and being sharp and hurtful in the words.

I am every man

2006-04-15T23:00:00.000-07:00

I'm every man, it's all in me
Anything you want done, baby
I'll do it naturally
I'm every man, it's all in me
I can read your thoughts right now
Every one from a to z

I can cast a spell
With secrets you can't tell
Make a special brew
Put fire inside of you
But anytime you feel
Danger or fear
Instantly i will appear, 'cause

I'm every man, it's all in me
Anything you want done, baby
I'll do it naturally

I can sense your needs
Like rain on to the seeds
I can make a rhyme
Of confusion in your mind
And when it comes down
To some good old fashioned love
That's what I've got plenty of, 'cause

I'm every man, it's all in me
Anything you want done, baby
I'll do it naturally
I'm every man, it's all in me
I can read your thoughts right now
Every one from a to z

I ain't braggin''cause i'm the one
You just ask me ooh and it shall be done
And don't bother to compare
'cause i've got it
I've got it, i've got it, yeah

I'm every man (repeat and fade)

This is adapted and modified a little from Chaka Khan's I'm every woman lyrics

Nasty and mean, everything. Good things and bad things happen. My mobile is spoilt now. Going to have a major difficulty in contacting with people. Never mind, i am going to work until i have gone lunatic to earn the money i need to buy a new phone. I am super angry at someone, yet super excited for someone.

At the end of the day, it doesn't matter how many friends you have got. Friends, treasure your parents They are the only people who can help you during your big time. We are dependant on them. Trust in God to provide. I aint gonna make no big fuss over something that is seemingly unimportant. It is a great thing my good for nothing mobile is broken now. At least, i can get some peace out of it. American Idol will be an interesting TV show with no people disrupting me watching it now. Go, Paris. I am rooting for you solely!! Paris can really captivate my heart. She is my mini-Fantasia. A bubbly girl who can perform so damn well.
She is the season veteran, though 17, she can teach a lot of performers including all the vocally weak officially recognised singers like JJ, Jay Chou, whatever, how is it really like to be performing on stage. Paris is coming on the heels of Mandisa now, way to go Paris. I wish you all the luck in the world that you are going to break the benchmark of Fantasia's Summertime, which is known to be the best idol performance thus far. As Stevie, Mr Wonder said, you have a great future ahead of you and it definitely holds true for you. I love Paris..... =D

No one stands alone

2006-03-09T08:29:00.000-08:00

It was a hectic day for me again. Sometimes, i wonder whether there is actually something to break the usual routine of my life. I merely want to stop living a life that is without purpose. I realised, some nights ago, that watching the television is fun but meaningless. Nonetheless, that doesnt stop the nasty habit of mine, wanting to catch American Idol without fail.

Tonight, when i was working together with Zhang Liang, i witnessed something interesting which i will share in the latter part of the post. Zhang Liang is a fabulous worker, he can serve the customer, set the table and everything else required of a waiter almost flawlessly. He is swift in his actions and take hold of every utensils very steadily. There is simply no trace of clumsiness in his work. I am just in awe of it. It kind of makes me feel nostalgic. Every time i see how good he is at in his work, it reminds me of how i get tipped off all the time by my assistant manager, Coco Chan. Not only was i slow in my work, i was extremely clumsy, breaking cups and plates every now and then even when there is not even a slightest bit of wind present in that kind of environment. Strangely though, i was extremely heartbroken when i left that place. Not because my loved ones are there but because i quit at the time when i got pretty close to my work mates. Sad, real sad, one of the deepest regret i ever had in my life.

Back to the topic, i put myself into a trance when there is no customer around. The work is boring me to tears. I seriously cant picture myself slacking there for the entire 2 hours with absolutely nothing interesting to do. I rather live in my own picturesque world with my own stupid imagination and stuffs like that. This will make my working hours more lively. Just then, i noticed something very interesting. A Bangladesh who is hired for washing the plates is actually making food for the people in order to lighten the work of the chef. When i saw it, i was like, Oh Gosh, what is he doing, is he even doing the right thing? Then, i asked Zhang Liang, why is the Bangladesh helping the chefs to make food, dont he has own work to do? Zhang Liang answered me that since he is able to make it, why not? He has finished washing the plates. I was not really amazed by how he answered me but by the principle i can draw out from them.

We, who made ourselves known as Christians will be good if we can follow their example. Imagine a Bangladesh helping 2 Koreans, it is nothing less than awesome. If i were to help somebody with no relations to me and he/she has a different skin color from mine, i will definitely refuse. But, if they can do it, why cant we? We must not only help the brothers in Christ, though they are the priority, they are not everything. If we help someone who love us, how are we any different from all the worldly people in this degrading planet. It proves that we must help people who condemn us also, it may be kind of impossible for egoisitic people, but Jesus puts himself down as a human to serve people who reject him, so, how can we find any reason not to help any person who curses us? There is just no reason under the sky that we can find to refuse helping people in need of help, be it they are believers or not.

This example also make clear that we should assist our brothers in Christ much more than we ought to. A Bangladesh helps people who are not related to him in any ways. Hence, it makes no reason why we aint helping our brothers more than we are supposed to when they are somebody we have some earnest relationship with. We should complement each other weaknesses and strengthen each other strengths. Contribute in our areas of strength when they are in need of you and accepting help when they are contributing something out of their strength to cover your weaknesses. No man is an island and no man stands alone. God didnt create Adam to stand on his own, he created Eve to help him out. Genesis 2:21-23

1 Corinthian 12:12-25
We are a body and each of us are different parts of the body. We are interdependant on one another.

Heard it through the grapevine

2006-03-04T09:38:00.000-08:00

Wondering what the title means? Well, it just hearing from what somebody says. Dont take it literally. You wont be able to get something if you take it like that.

Pondering about the stuffs i heard about? Wonder no more, as i will keep this post short and effective in conveying my thoughts.

Some of us, fellow followers of our Lord Jesus Christ, including me, are not doing what we should be doing. Be it evangelising, putting God's words into practice, discipling, whatever. We are always using school, work, exhaustion, fear as an excuse to shy away from all these things. If all these things were a hindrance to do what you should do. Get that thorn out of your flesh and go out and do it. Dont wait for Heaven to fall as it never will. Keep on waiting and procrastinating wont get you anywhere. Worse come to worst, you may not even do it. School, work, exhaustion, fear is every now and then, saying to do it next week wont remove the all these barriers that are obstructing you to extend God's kingdom.

This post aint created for rebuking. It is made for all fellow christians including myself who have been slacking and indulging in pointless stuffs that aint gonna help in nothing to grow spiritually. Your sloth in extending God's kingdom not only affect your own spiritual growth. It will also demoralise a person greatly and strongly brings DOWN a person who wants to do something at the least to help extend God's kingdom. I heard it through the grapevine. People are commiting themselves to the wrong and worldly stuffs, or should i put in a harsher way, people are finding excuses that dont work to be void of responsibilities.

Reflect on this, repent if you need to. Have a nice day reading. If your blood boils after you read this, kindly dont spam in the comments section. Talk to somebody about it.

Verse
John 4:35-38
DONT WAIT

Tom Cruise

2006-02-28T05:23:00.000-08:00

Tom Cruise is an amazing actor. Not only are his expression natural, his actions exude charisma and personality. Well, this is expected from an actor in Hollywood. Just placing him besides any Singapore actors will make people think that the person making this sort of arrangement is crazy. Tom Cruise just overshadowed any Singapore actors/actresses in terms of acting.

Why am i talking about him in this blog? Obviously not because i am advertising for his upcoming movie, Mission Impossible 3 on the net. The actual topic i am going to touch on is actually Scientology, a really unbiblical cult that says that Jesus is just a fictional "somebody" who is implanted into a person's brain 75 millions years ago. This theory may seem extremely insane to us but "he" buys it.

Cruise promotes the belief of Scientology which causes an uproar in the States. As the United States of America are mostly populated by Catholics and Christians. They claim that Cruise is trying to enhance some heresy to the country. Since then, Cruise popularity actually plummeted to his worst yet. We cant say that he deserves it, maybe a little of his background will let you know how Satan's deception causes him to indulge in this kind of belief.

According to Cruise, he actually said that Scientology had helped him overcome his dyslexia, a disease which causes someone to be unable to read, write or speak properly. If you were in his shoes and something helped you overcome a problem that you have deemed impossible to do so. You will fall into the same pit like him. Nobody will think, "Hey, you miraculously helped me, now i will turn my back on you. Farewell, i didnt request for your help, you helped me on your own accord." People will see you as ungrateful if you do so.

This is one of the weapon that Satan comes up with to draw people away from God. Cruise is actually a Catholic and even aspires to be a Pope. Look what happen? So, if you actually want to be a pastor, better guard your heart against everything, or else your darkness will encompass your future. This particular weapon which Satan has created sucked people into not believing in their savior has actually existed

Jesus is not just simply a data! For Heaven sake, we are not playing Star Ocean. Drop you guys a verse.
John 3:16
So, if in the near future, people claim that Jesus is a sadist who loves pressurizing the Pharisees, for instance. (Who knows what men will come up with, their imagination is corrupted and insanely mad!!). DONT BELIEVE IT.

Remember, as long as we believed in Jesus, we are never condemned.

Note: The heart of this topic is how Satan's device will work on even faithful believers of Christ. It is not Tom Cruise!!

Real and Unreal

2006-02-20T07:00:00.000-08:00

A real thing is something that can be seen, heard and felt
An unreal thing is something that can neither be felt, heard nor seen.

What is my definition of real? Well, it is just simply something that can be felt in a strong and different way. The sensation of that thing is strong and no one could ever take it away. It is just so deep rooted inside your mind and your heart that nobody's word can ever sway you from thinking it as unreal.

So, is our Heavenly Father real? Most definitely, to all believers, will sin if they ever answer it No. However, to all non-believers and such. They will think of it as unreal since they cannot see Him, hear Him Nor feel Him. But the miracles that He has done for us is so praise-worthy that a second of doubt is a shameful thing.

Something that can be heard, seen and felt might not be real. For instance, we can see, feel and hear what the drama is trying to convey. We can put ourselves into the character's shoes and feel how the character is feeling. We can see the character's facial expression, actions, we can also hear what the character is saying. So, does that make the drama real? Obviously No.

Why must we see a thing to define it as Real. It is stated in (2 Corithian 5:7) that we live by Faith and not by Sight. What is the use of seeing it and believing it. Everybody do that. So it doesnt distinguish ourselves and all the worldly people. So, as Christians, we should not doubt Him but put all our faith in Him. God will still fit into the Real category. We can see Jesus again, cant we? So, even the defintion of Real by most people will be considered invalid.

We can see, hear and feel God. So, he can never be unreal. His love for us is Real, His Presence is Real, His words are real for training and rebuking us in righteousness. Everything about Him is real. Amen?

Genesis 15:1-6
If God can do such a thing to you? Will you still doubt that he is unreal?